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Hi,
i am 25 year old guy. i am feeling terribl depressed and suicidal.
I want to ask iff anyone can relate to me or tell me what exactly is going on with me.
As a person i have never had any serious depression problems until now and i was capable of coping with most of them quite easily.
I have been helping two couples who had problems in relationship for almost two years among them i offered to help the girl and the guy approached me for help himself.
I never had any good relationships earlier and liked to help them because of this with good intentions since i looked at their love as something beautifull...
Even each loved the other deeply for long(but were not totally mature enough mentally ) they had so many small differences which the would fight with...
I am an terrible optimist and wanted to resolve this beliving in when two people love each other small differences can easily be done away with iff i helped them undertsand each other better,
In the course of time i became their counsellor, their teacher brother etc....... i needed to know them better to make each other undertsand better..
This made me to hear too personal things of love desires affairs etc from them as well as terrible negativism from each side about the other i was like a judge in the battle of love.....
Since i got very close to the girl i was sometimes asked by others wether i was i love with her.....it hurt my psyche badly because both of them were my close buddies now..and i could never imagine that..
Now after 2 yrs things are the same but she wants to marry him but lately i have come to know that even though the guy loves her intensly he is a big flirt she also knows that but wants to go ahead and i know now that things will not be good for her.
Whats my limitations as a friend???
I am tired dissapointed and all my efforts have gone waste i feel afraid myself of any relationship i dont know does listening too much to others negativism and helping them going to affect ones mind badly???
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