Posted by nikky
on November 22, 2000 at 13:50:56:
My name is nikky and I want to tell you about my angel.
My husband and I decided last Christmas that we wanted another baby. So in January, when I found
I was expecting, we were so excited. We planned for our baby. Everything was going to be wonderful.
But after a blood test, I was told that my baby had a chance of having downs syndrome. I just knew it
my fault and there was something I could've done. After I went to about 5 neonatal appointments for sono-
grams and testing, they said that everything looked good and my husband and I thought we were in
the clear. So we contiuned to plan for what we now knew was a little girl. I went into labor four weeks
early the doctors refused to induce. They said it was too soon. Then things started to go wrong. My
baby's heart rate was dropping. They would have to take her early. I was scared and after the delivery
I kept asking, "How's my baby?" Noone would answer me. Even after I saw her and held her, noone
let on that there was anything wrong. Then all of a sudden a doctor comes in talking about downs
syndrome and how "babies like these don't breast feed sometimes." Babies like these? My goodness,
what a way to break the news. Of course the doctor apoligized after seeing the terrified look on my face.
She had assumed that we knew. I was devistated, and then I looked at my daughter and I started to cry.
I sobbed for what seemed like forever. It was the happiest and saddest day of my life. But now, I
wouldn't have it any other way. I am now so humble and able to see things in a whole new perspective.
I know that God sent me a little angel. She's taught me patience and how not to take advantage of life,
or the things we automatically take for granted. Thanks for reading, and I hope that this helps anyone
that had life take them by surprise!!!!!