Posted by 21 year old girl
on August 10, 2000 at 00:59:37:
I hate how all I can think about is food. All day long I think about what I want to eat and then I eat too much and hate how much weight I am gaining. Tonight for example I ate way too much and was so full - so I made myself sick. I feel a little better now, but it won't make up for all of the other times and for what will most likely happen in the future. I need to stop. I want to have self control and to lose weight. I workout at least once a day - usually twice and I still remain fat. What is the secret to self control? I feel like food rules my life and that I am trapped both inside my ugly body and in this terrible state of food obsession. What is wrong with me? What can I do???