Posted by Leah on September 09, 2000 at 01:06:59:

In Reply to: please help me!!!! i HAVE to throw up!!!! posted by depressed on September 05, 2000 at 17:49:50:

: please! please! how do i do it???????
: i need to purge...laxatives hurt too much...
: i HAVE to puke...PLEASE!!!! PLEASE HELP ME!
: i know it's bad for me and i'll quit...i will, but right now i need to purge!!!

: everything was going well, i hadnt eaten anything for 3 days and then, today i binged again and im SOOO scared that i might gain the weight that i lost back!
: PLEASE, PLEASE HELP ME!!! how do u do it??

Well, first of all I have to say that I DO know what you're going through! The pain that you feel is definately a deep routed emotional problem that you have suppressed for a long time. I developed an eating disorder at the age of ten and after years of binging, purging, starving myself for days at a time, as well as using laxatives, my body and mind were in such pain! I used to take my scale wherever I went, even on vacations! How rediculous! I thought it would never end. I thought about food 24 hours a day, and the scale dominated my life. I am now 25 and it has taken me 3 years to get well again. I decided to take control of my life again and I feel so incredible now! I NEVER step on a scale and I don't obsess about food! I exercise regulaly. I love yoga and highly reccomend it. I also hike, run, swim, dance, lift weights, and number one-I EAT! I eat 4-5 meals a day and do my best to make the healthiest choices. I feel lean and energetic. I have even started fitness modeling! It's amazing what can happen when you treat your body right! What you are doing to your body is abuse. You are abusing yourself mentally and physically and you have to stop before it controls every aspect of your life. PLEASE HELP YOURSELF! Talk to someone and don't feel ashamed. Make a POWERFUL choice to change TODAY!! When you starve yourself, it is ineveitable that you WILL binge! Your body goes into starvation mode and will store everything that goes into your body as fat because it is preparing itself for the next starvation period. Our bodies need to be fueled every 3-4 hours in order to keep our metabolisms kicking and our energy levels up. Please understand the logic in this. We NEED healthy food to live, breathe and function!