Posted by tiffany
on September 13, 2000 at 17:31:13:
In Reply to: Re: Can't escape! posted by Samantha on September 11, 2000 at 03:09:40:
: You're not alone. If no one knew what it felt like to fall back on it there wouldn't be message boards like this one. I laps back and forth, but usually I have trouble for a while then I'm ok for a while. From one extreme to the other. I'm happy so say I have not purged in a month & I've been almost in control for 2. I couldn't quit cold turkey so I would eliminate 1 purging session each week. I knew exactly when I would do it so the first week I eliminated the last one of the day & the next week it would be the 2nd to the last (aka the new last one of the day) until I wouldn't allow myself to do it at all. I know, chances are that it's going to happen again, but I am much more health concious now & I watch my intake to make sure it's healthy & to lose weight the right way. Hopefully, this time it will last much longer than ever before. I also started reading many books about eating disorders & their causes. Knowing why this is happening & what I'm putting my body through helps alot too because I am afraid of the consequences if I don't stop. Knowledge is power & strength. I know there are many of us who understand what you are going through. It's not an easy road, but it is one that only you can control. No one can do it for you, but they can help you along the way. God be with you & may he grant you the strength to succeed. ^Ň^
I was also in a hospital for Bulimia. It has been two years, and I still stuggle with it. sometimes I purge still but I try to tell those negative voices in my head to go away. Those voices aren't telling you the truth...so don't listen. Tell someone about what you are going through. Maybe they can help. I can definetely relate!