Posted by Tiffany
on September 13, 2000 at 19:45:20:
In Reply to: throwing up at 41 posted by jbrules on September 12, 2000 at 22:10:13:
I feel bad about my weight too, but even when I have lost some weight, there always seems to be something else that isn't right about me. I too, hate the way this feels. always worrying about being fat. who cares! I hate it that I always compare myself to other people, feeling that I am the one who needs to lose more weight. I hate that. I can relate to what you are feeling, and don't give up! Keep talking about it. Maybe it would help to see someone too.
: Hi Im a 41 yr old woman. since the age of 19 I have suffered with one form of eating disorder or another.
: My question is this I go well for a while then something just want let me go and I start feeling guilty about about my wieght which is quite heavy now these days compared to how I use to be a few years ago. Generally I try and talk to myself that being over weight alittle doesnt matter when all my life I have watched every little piece of food and fat that I put in my mouth. But I hate to look at myself in the mirror but now take some comfort that being over 40 hey who am I suppose to be impressing. I know my husband loves me the way I am, he never says otherwise.
: But why why why want these feelings of guild go away. Why do I still sometimes often feel the need to stick my fingers down my thoat, which I do. Why carnt I just be happy the way I am fat or thin. jan