Posted by Jill L.
on October 16, 2000 at 02:48:14:
Hi. I am 31 years old and I think I may be becoming anorexic. I had a baby a year ago and have been obsessed with my weight ever since. I weigh myself 8-10 times a day and move the scales to different areas hoping to get a better reading. I am 5'7" and lost down to 132# after having my baby (8#s less than my prepregnancy weight). After recetnly switching to a new antidepressent, I gained 12#s and am now more obsessed w/ my weight than ever. I can't starve myself anymore b/c the antidepressents make me hungry all the time. I exercise almost every day and feel guilty when I don't. I feel guilty about everything I eat and take chromium several times daily. I occasionally take laxatives to make my stomach look flatter, but have only forced myself to vomit once b/c I did so much of it when I was pregnant (due to morning sickness only)! I am obsessed w/my stomach and cry when I put something on and it doesn't fit. Although I currently only weigh 2#s more than my prepregnancy weight I went from a size 6 to a size 10. Premenstral weight gain brings me to tears now. I look in the mirror and call myself a fat pig. I know that I am very sad and afraid, but am I anorexic?? Is it common to develop this after having a baby and a drastic change in your body? (Sorry to be so long winded but this is the first time I have ever spoken about this.....I have held it all in b/c I feel as though the people around me only want to see the good and happy side). Please help me.