Posted by Kathrin
on November 08, 2000 at 01:57:32:
In Reply to: I don't want to eat anymore>>> posted by anonymous on November 07, 2000 at 11:35:49:
I had anorexia. In the beginning it feels exciting and it feels like a way to get happy, to get beautiful, to get attention, to get all those great things... and I started losing weight. i thought, once I am very very skinny, so skinny everybody will tell me to eat more, I will allow myslef to eat more again. Because then I won't be afraid to get fat! Oh if only I had known!!! I got to that low weight that i thought would be very skinny, and then i thought, well I'd better lose some more, so I can be safe, because if I start eating now I will lose this being-skinny again.. well i don't remember exactly what thoughts I had but this is the usual way it goes, I think most here will agree? And I do remember that at one point, oh I just wanted my life back! Because with anorexia, we don't only lose weight. We also lose a lot of joy in our lives, we lose freedom, we lose liking to be with people - we withdraw into our own worlds and become lonely, depressed, and feel so misunderstood. And most of all, we become very very tired. Low low energy, everything slowed down. I felt like a machine!
You don't want to go there, please listen to us here.