Posted by IT'S CANDICE AGAIN
on November 24, 2000 at 20:58:25:
In Reply to: I DON'T KNOW IF I HAVE AN EATING DISORDER posted by candice on November 24, 2000 at 20:46:35:
: lets see i wake when my dad brings my up yogurt to eat and i get out of bed take the yogurt and put it under my sink in my bathroom ( when i get home i throught it away) then i go to rifle team practice and try to shoot well but never can cause i'm dizzy then i make it through school... but i eat a little bit at lunch so my friends won't worry...but somtimes when i'm going up the stairs or when i get up out of my seat or i turn my head fast i get dizzy.... then i have cheerleading practice and i get through that ok i guess and then i go home and eat everything i see and then i throw it up and then i eat ice then i have teakwon-do and that is hard to get through i always feel like i'm going to pass out... i'm training for my second degree black belt!!!! then i come home and i eat dinner ( so my paretns won't worry about me) but then i throw that up too... sometimes i have a snack or something but not usually... when i look in the miror all that i see is FAT FAT FAT i mean i'm 4 feet 11 inches and i wiegh like 110 and i'm 15% body fat !!!! you can't get much fatter than that so i don't even look like i have a problem... and i don't know if i do...... SORRY I JUST WANTED TO ADD SOMETIHNG when i make myself throw up i see myself doing it it's like i'm watching and i can't stop myself i don't know it's like at first i was the only thing that i could controll in my life and it is always there for me but now i think it's taking controll over me and it's still always there for me i don't know i'm sooo confused...