Posted by Mary Jane
on September 20, 1999 at 00:05:11:
In Reply to: BULIMIA posted by LYNN on September 19, 1999 at 00:28:22:
: I am 18 years old. I used to be anorexic, but the need for food was too dramatic, and I began to be bulimic. What scares me about it is...I honestly don't want to stop. Because I know that if I do stop, I will gain weight. I want to look the same, but without starving, or benging and purging. But that's just not possible, so I do whatever is necessary. In a way I want to tell a friend, but then I know that I will have to try to stop. The last thing I want to do is get fat. I'm not too skinny right now, I'm 5'7" 123 lbs. And I don't seem to be getting any smaller, so I keep telling myself that what I'm doing is not dangerous. I need help, I need someone to talk to. I'm really scared and I don't know what to do.
Lynn: I had my first experience with bulimia when I was about 20 years old. I am now 39. I started binging and purging when I was dumped by a boyfriend who I cared very much about. I thought he dumped me because I was fat. Now I use it whenever I'm down. But I am taking control of my life by starting thereapy. I think you could benefit by doing the same. I hope to gain a better self image through thereapy so that binging and purging isn't my solution. After nearly 20 years of fighting this alone, I fear I have caused myself permanent damage and I need to take control. You can do it, too. Good luck!