Posted by Dereka
on November 30, 1999 at 21:01:18:
Hi. I'm 16,.... 5'8 and weigh 134 lbs. I'm in the gang of under-eaters. A couple of months ago I knew I was anorexic. I can loose 2.5 pounds a day. In only a couple of weeks last March I went from weighing 140 (still at 5'8) to 109. I lost quite a bit of weight. I was proud. I, for once achieved something I always wanted to do. Then after the overwhelming negative attention i was getting... I had to eat. I was tired of being physically tired. I was fed up with blue hands and nothing to wear. I was ugly. I actually got so skinny I was ugly. I looked like a holocaust survivor. But i was proud. Then over the summer, I put weight back on, slowly. Very slowly. I figured I'd stop when I looked like I had skin. In the time being, my mom developed anorexia, and so did my best friend. They still are, and I don't know know to confront them, or how to help them. It scares me because I always feel so fat around them now, and have began to stop eating again. My determination is scaring me and I want to reach out. But, I don't. Because I don't know why. Anyways, anyone out there please respond to me. Maybe I'll get some good advice to help me on my merry way back to normal living.