Posted by Louise
on January 22, 2000 at 02:21:15:
i've been pretty much wanting to be somewhat anorexic or something. Well, not exactly, but I'd do anything to be thin. And well, i've been starving myself alot, for the past few days, and exercising too. I think it helped a bit. But i'm afraid when i think i have to keep this up forever. Like i'll never have a chance to enjoy food again. But frankly, if that's what it takes, I might just have to do it. I am not so much afraid of dying than of growing fat. Well, I think I already am fat anyway. The thing is, I feel so afraid to eat. I feel like a single tiny bite of anything will make me grow fat immediately. They say that starvin doesn't work, because the moment you eat normally, you put on even more weight than before. I need to know if that is true, and if there is no way I could just eat a little without ballooning immediately? Please help... i realli have to know.