Posted by Patricia
on January 25, 2000 at 14:42:21:
In Reply to: am i anorexic posted by 9am on January 24, 2000 at 18:05:17:
I understand what you're saying, but I don't think you really mean it. I used to say the same thing. I don't think you want the disorderómaybe you really just want the control. When you worry about your weight and what other people (ie-your friends) think of you, you must be worrying about food issues too.
As tough as it is (and believe me, I know), please think about what you're doing. If you starve yourself you will end up weak and sick. As soon as you start eating again, you will gain the weight back and more.
I have also been on anti-depressants (not sure if you took them or not) and being depressed is a very huge thing. You managed to get through it, so I think you can get through this one too.
I don't really know if you need to lose weight at all. In my case, I have had body image problems since I was 12. As soon as I got hips, I felt very insecure and wanted to look boyish like those ridiculously skinny models. In time I have come to accept my body. I was never really fat, I just thought I was because I was holding myself to unrealistic, dangerous standards.
I know this is a lot of info. I hope at least a bit of it makes sense to you. And please know that someone cares!