Posted by T
on June 28, 2000 at 17:27:34:
How long can I wait to puke?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?! What??? I came here looking for support from people suffering from similar problems. The majority of what I see are tips! I've been fighting this thing for almost 10 years, up and down. I was doing well for about 4 of those years, but I have a tendancy to relapse. As an athlete, I struggle with weight change and body image. Being a biologist, I know the physical mess it makes, not to mention mental. My head knows what to do, but my heart won't listen. My greatest wish is to "just be able to eat." My therapist and I go over and over it. I know it's a HUGE shame and control issue. I'm so much better than I used to be though. I can finally go to the grocery store by myself without freaking out. I just feel stuck. I'm fine cooking for someone else, but hate cooking for one. How do I start chipping away at this wall that is in front of me? I've got all my food logs, etc... Why can't I see the other side?