Posted by Jeska
on July 18, 2000 at 11:56:35:
In Reply to: Who am I? posted by Me on July 18, 2000 at 01:16:24:
In answer to your question who am I? I dont' know I wonder the same thing every day. I am in your shoes exactly, but a little further along. See I am 5'4" and I weigh 100.5 pounds. I used to weigh 133, then I started starving myself just to loose 13 pounds and be at 120, cause I thought I would be happy at that weight, but then I wanted to be 115.I started getting compliments and it felt good so I started to loose more weight thinking it would make me better. Well I was way wrong and I started feeling worse mentally and I needed food so badly so I started throwing up. At first I would eat a small meal and feel so bad that I would have to throw up for an hour to make sure it was all gone then go exercise for 2 to make up for it. Well I finally got down to 110 pounds and then I felt I had to wear baggy clothes so my parents wouldn't see the weight loss and wonder how I was doin it, but I still felt fat. It wasen't until two days ago I was discovered. I had just eaten a bowl of cheerios and went to throw up as I was finishing my mom came downstaris, and asked why it smelled like cheerios she found out and was devastated. I didn't realize how much it hurt her. So yesterday I went to the doctor and now I have to travel 50 miles to see go to see a specialist, if I'm lucky I get to come home if not I get the stay there. I guess what I'm trying to tell you is your not alone and to get help before it's too late. Things just get worse and loosing the weight will just make you feel worse in the long run.
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