Posted by Jenny on December 19, 2000 at 12:55:36:

The cold smell of the hospital...the beeping of ventilators....the look on doctors faces... its something that not even your dreams can protect you from...Ever time i close my eyes i can picture him helpless hooked up to all those machines his body swallon...I remeber i prayered that i could kiss him and like out a fairy tale he would wake and cacner would be a far off nightmare but it never happened my father never came back to me...One day i was a happy highschool student with hopes of being homecoming queen and the next i found my self trying to hold on to the man who my whole life had made everything beautiful.I wish there was someway i could hug for just another day but at the end of that day i would just wnat another day....I am 16 and i will never see my father again except in memories or photographs...I wish i could show the whole world what a unbelievable person he was but i think the world understood that long before i did.....Death is not as final as it seems for people never truly die for love is unending....Cancer may destroy the body but it never destroys love in fact in some ways it taught me to love people more for life is fleeting....
never give up even in his darkest hour my daddy never gave up he always wore a smile and was willing to give a hug......My father promised one last dance well daddy i have to wait many years to get in that dance but heaven it s beautiful ball room!