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Posted by Beth
on October 24, 2000 at 22:02:14:
In Reply to: Re: Serzone posted by Steph on October 24, 2000 at 00:40:48:
: Do u possibly have bi-polar. I was siagnosed w/ it when i was 16 and maybew they need to add a mood stabilizer to ur med now. This might help in the past year i went threw a major med change and they figured out(how smart they are) something i already new that i was depressed. they then put me on an antidepressent and for the first time in over a year i felt good and not stressed from all the crying one moment to a high the next.(i tottaly understand it gets so exausting!!)
: If u need to talk directly plaese email me.
: : Ok please please help with any input anyone might have. I have suffered depression for many years, TOO MANY YEARS, I AM TIRED!!!
: : I once attempted suicide and was in ICU for a week. That is when my doctor finally realized that there might be a problem (what a smart man!) Seems it takes something severe happening before people finally realize that help has been needed!
: : Since then I have been on many different antidepressants and attending counseling. I have been on Prozac, (worked for awhile then stopped and it didnt seem to have helped with my anxiety), Zoloft, same thing. Effexor XR, no real mood lift and I just felt really dumb on it.
: : Now my Psych has switched me to Serzone. I need input on this. I have been on the dose pack that gradually incrteases your mg per week. I am now at 100 and will max out at 400. The problem at this point is I feel INSANE. One minute I am so incredibly high and everything in my life makes me soooo happy then like the flick of a light switch I can be crying and wanting to give up on my life. Will this medicine ever balance me out or should I try something else?
: : All the doctors in the past have ALWAYS said to give the medicine at least a month to reach its effect, but I find this so ironic when depressed people need help now!!!! I am so tired of "waiting for me medicine to work" That is what I seem to have sepnt the last 5 years of my life doing is WAITING.
: : Another thing with the Serzone is I seem to have gained weight, this in return makes my depression worse because then I hate myself more. It seems most responses I see to this med is weight loss well hell no, not me I do the opposite. Will this go away in time??? In a very short time?? :)
: : Once again another thing I find ironic is that most people with depression suffer low self esteem why would they have meds out there that can cause weight gain?? I hate myself enough without something else added to the hate list!!!! I got so fed up from the uncontrolable emotions today, that as I was in a crying and angry rage I finally fell down exhausted and asked why god cant just leave me alone!!!!! I just need a break, where everything can just stay on a even line. Is that too damn much to ask?
: : As you can tell I am so very fed up of the just sit back and wait and while I am waiting to get happy the side effects always start rolling in before the happiness begins to start. Please any advice would be helpful!!!
: : Beth
This is a follow up for Steph message to Beth's message that she replied to. Thank you for replying to my message. I wanted to reply to your response via email but I could not find your email address.
In response to what you said about being diagonosed with bipolar. The ironic part is I just went to my new psych and he diagonosed me with bi-polar and he put me on a Topamax and what a difference a day makes. I still am a little up and down but nothing like before and he says to give it a little time. But at least now I have some control over myself. I was really scared there for awhile. I would love to talk to you more please email me at firstname.lastname@example.org. thaks again for your reply.