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Posted by Lisa on December 05, 2000 at 17:13:17:
I was diagnosed with Bi-polar back in May 99..I knew there was always something wrong, but until then, I just didn't have a name for it. My parents think it's in my head, my husband thinks that now that I take medication(Tegretol,Zoloft,Wellbutrin) that I should be all normal, and happy like him and sadly enough my best friend thinks that it's just a little depression and that I do not need to be on medication at all. I haven't left the house more than a handful in the last three months, I am lonely, scared, and worried all the time for absolutely no reason. I sleep 18 hours a day, and still I am tired, I feel hopeless, and beyond miserable. Self-mutilation has become my outlet for pain. And I hate this medicated cloudy feeling, but most of all I hate that NO ONE has any compassion or tolerance for what I am dealing with,...I left my job, stopped going to college, and have just gave up. I need more support to get through this...does anyone have any ideas what I can do???..I am just tired of everyone expecting me to be "normal".Don't they like I would love that too!!!
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