[ Home ] [ Follow Ups ] [ Post Followups ] [ FAQ ]
[ Back to Messages ]
Posted by Jennifer on December 16, 2000 at 12:58:52:
I am 26 yrs old, and have struggled with depression, mood swings and various compulsions. I am currently in therapy once a week, and now taking remeron. My husband left me 2 years ago because of my behavior and actions, during my depressions, etc. He felt he didn't know me anymore, (I didn't know me either) and he could no longer take the mood swings, or my behavior. I am still devastated by the loss of this man, I have loved him for 9 years, and still do, we have 2 kids,that are wonderful, but are having a hard time, my ex-husband has also been suffering through his own depression, and still regrets the loss of our marriage and family, but says he will never love me again, because of the things I did, My question is, how do I get over the guilt, for hurting him, and my children, because I was/am sick. He doesn't understand, that it is an illness, and it was beyond my control, that I slept all the time, hid from life, and was angry, and hurt all the time, I know I am responsible for not getting better, but I just couldn't it took two years after he left for me to hit bottom, can anyone who went through something similar, give me hope, that their life turned out o.k, after a similar loss, Sometimes, I feel i robbed myself, of the only real happiness, I ever had, and I hate myself. I know though, I don;t want my kids, to feel like I do, and I need to get better for them. Any advice, would be appreciated. Thank You
|
