Posted by Betty H.
on September 01, 2000 at 06:54:47:
In Reply to: Re: A tiny bit of progress posted by Googy on August 31, 2000 at 22:47:46:
: : I am sure there are many people reading this board that have occasionally been told you "can't" do something because you have pd. Well, I have just been forced to use a walker, and I got to thinking how do I know I can't push a vacuum cleaner unless I tried it. Moping the kitchen wasn't dificult. I just kept moving around in my scooter. Today I vacuumed the living room keeping the walker in front of me. This was a little harder, because the legs were causing some problems, but I would stop and take a short break and then get up and push that sweeper again. This may not be much to some people, but it did give my morale a big boost. Bruce
: Bruce you proved that you can.What is the saying,I can,I can,I can !!!!.
You are such a wonderful role model, but how do you do it? Where do you get so much strength & courage? I have had P.D. over 5 yrs. & I know it's here to stay, along with Psoriatic Arthritis and other aggravating problems, but I haven't accepted it. I didn't ask for all this in my life and I hate it & it can just go away. Right! Like all of you I'm sure, you hope you'll wake up & find it was just a nightmare. I realize this sounds stupid & I'm thinking like a child, but how do you make yourself go every day with such a load to carry. I consider myself to be a religious person, but I must admit, my faith is dwindling, I use to pride myself in being the ideal patient and being in control, but not any more. You are never away from it. Just all the pills alone, you feel like you should explode any min. The first thing that came to mind when I was diagnosed was, "what a burden I'm going to be on my famly". and that is in my mind almost constantly. They are wonderful & supportive, but that doesn't make it any easier.
I'm sorry, I guess I've gotten off track. I know you all have this to deal with and more, but thanks for listening. And Bruce, "way to go", if anyone can do something, I think you can.
Thanks for motivaing us!