Posted by Bruce
on September 01, 2000 at 23:33:44:
In Reply to: Re: A tiny bit of progress posted by Betty H. on September 01, 2000 at 06:54:47:
: : : I am sure there are many people reading this board that have occasionally been told you "can't" do something because you have pd. Well, I have just been forced to use a walker, and I got to thinking how do I know I can't push a vacuum cleaner unless I tried it. Moping the kitchen wasn't dificult. I just kept moving around in my scooter. Today I vacuumed the living room keeping the walker in front of me. This was a little harder, because the legs were causing some problems, but I would stop and take a short break and then get up and push that sweeper again. This may not be much to some people, but it did give my morale a big boost. Bruce
: : Bruce you proved that you can.What is the saying,I can,I can,I can !!!!.
: : love,
: : Googy
: You are such a wonderful role model, but how do you do it? Where do you get so much strength & courage? I have had P.D. over 5 yrs. & I know it's here to stay, along with Psoriatic Arthritis and other aggravating problems, but I haven't accepted it. I didn't ask for all this in my life and I hate it & it can just go away. Right! Like all of you I'm sure, you hope you'll wake up & find it was just a nightmare. I realize this sounds stupid & I'm thinking like a child, but how do you make yourself go every day with such a load to carry. I consider myself to be a religious person, but I must admit, my faith is dwindling, I use to pride myself in being the ideal patient and being in control, but not any more. You are never away from it. Just all the pills alone, you feel like you should explode any min. The first thing that came to mind when I was diagnosed was, "what a burden I'm going to be on my famly". and that is in my mind almost constantly. They are wonderful & supportive, but that doesn't make it any easier.
: I'm sorry, I guess I've gotten off track. I know you all have this to deal with and more, but thanks for listening. And Bruce, "way to go", if anyone can do something, I think you can.
: Thanks for motivaing us!
: Betty H.
Betty H: I don't want to mislead anyone, in that I don't feel courages but just an ordinary guy trying to cope with this diswase. I was hoping to motivate someone when I wrote the message,This is what I truly believe that helps cope with it all. It is importent to accept the problem and try to adjust to the changes in our health as time goes by. When I was concerned about not being able to walk again, I thought about it for a long time and decided I would fight it anyway I could think of. Also, having pd has really made me appreciate the little things in life that many people are not aware of in there high pressured jobs. The next thing Betty is just take it one day at a time and live tthat day the best that you can and try to enjoy life and I never wish for something I can't possibly attain. Today was even more rewarding then yesterday. My great neighbors offered to do my grocery shopping for me, but even though they mean well, that is not good for my mental health. Today I finaly had to get over this barrrier and decided to try it. I had no idea how far I could walk with the walker. To my surprise, it was an easy walk. I told my neighbor what I did and he said "you should have called." Do you see the significace of thst shopping trip? That was a fantastic "high" because it showed I am still a healthy person and can still do most things everyone else does from day to day. I know it is harder the sicker you are, but try not to punish yourself and think of the things you can still do well. Happiness amd attitude are dependent upon how hard we have to fight for it. If we choose to be sad we probably will be sad. There are a lot of beautiful and fascinating things to see and experience in the world. All we have to do is open our eyes and our hearts to discover it. This is my challenge to you Betty. Try some of those things I talked about and see what a difference it will make in your life. Bruce