Tubular Pregnancy-why do I still feel a loss??

It has been since 4/1/00.. not a day goes by that I do not think of what happened.. I had a tubular pregnancy.. I am 28.. no children nor husband and the "relationship" to guy was a mistake.. however the loss is still there.. i originally posted a note on here months ago.. asking questions about it. now I found myself reading through others to see if I can help anyone else with the same situation.. why do i found myself crying when i read some of them?.. it all happened so quickly for me.. and yet.. when i see coworkers with their pictures of their kids on their desks or even friends now expecting their 2nd or 3rd baby. i can not help but wonder why not me??.. why did this happen to me?? i often wonder... will this happen again?. are the chances of this happen again?.. (not as if i am dating anyone).. but the thought crosses my mind.. well i guess this is more a "release" message i am posting.. i guess i can not really talk to friends nor family. i don't think they would really understand..

thanks for reading..
Yani

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