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I'm trying to stop smoking--again. I smoked from the time I was four until I was fourteen. Then, I strted again at eighteen. I stopped for almost a year (last October), but I'm at it again. I just get so stressed from my life in general (financial problems, horrible job, etc...), that smoking seems to be the only option left, as I stopped drinking over a year ago. I know it's unhealthy, and I hate that I keep falling into the trap. I can go a day or two max without completely falling apart. Then, I have to start again, for fear for my safety. I cry constantly, I feel more depressed than usual,I have physical pain and more severe panic attacks, I become really irritable, and I even contemplate suicide. The first two times I stopped, I had no trouble. I was happy and healthy. Now, I'm sick and I can't keep my weight up (at least twenty pounds underweight), and that makes me MORE depressed.
The thing is, I want children soon. But until I can get this under control, and stop smoking, I fear getting pregnant. I don't want to harm a baby like that. This brings on more depression, so I'm on an endless cycle.
I've tried the stop smoking aids...gums and patches...and I always have an allergic reaction. I get a rash from the patch, and the gum makes my gums bleed and gives me cysts. The doctor is afraid to prescribe Zyban because of my severe reactions to a lot of medications. I thought about trying herbal therapies/remedies, but I don't know what works best.
Does anyone know what I can do?
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