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Depression at its peak a Feeling of NUMBNESS
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Posted by SID
on September 19, 2000 at 01:42:13:
these past few weeks my world came crumbling down
ive gone trhough a complete mental transformation
i dont feel like the man i use to be
having other people see me like this is even more depressing
i was sitting looking around my room at all the empty beer bottles & ashtrays overflowing feeling nothing but numbness
and i realized im a mess and i need some help
so i got an appointment with a pshychiatrist ....i know i didint spell that one right ...but anyway
hopefully this guy will help get me back on the right track
i cant sit here anylonger with a broken heart downing pain killers like candy and sleeping for 18 hours
i only ate one sandwich in the last 4 days & i lost about 8 LBS
i realize my anxiety and my ex will soon kill me if i dont get help
today wasint to bad of a day
i didint have one panic attack and thats rare
but i noticed i was really snappy & still broken hearted the only time i felt a panic attack comming was when i was standing in line to pay for something at the store & i got so stressed out i just threw the stuff down & walked out
i know i have a social phobia but i wanna get out for some fresh air once in a while
its to bad good people like us should have to live like this
is a angry mood swings & bad temper part of anxiety?
or manic depressant?
maybie i have it all who knows
i would cut off my finger to get rid of anxiety if i knew thats what it would take
but i guess we just gotta deal with it
anyways i hope everybodys feeling ok and taking care of themselves
also a special thanks to Kathrin again for helping me through the hard times that night i was crying & felt hopeless i was thinking of you & was starting to feel better i dont wanna sound corny but i almost felt like holding you in my arms
everything you said meant alot
take care everybody seeeya
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