Just started Suboxone and have already messed up!!

dwo2016

momto3cs-Dont give up on yourself yet! This is a process and it took you 10 years to get here so its not going to go away overnight. I just want to encourage you to keep on keeping on. Yes, the medicine definitely does what its supposed to but you have to get rid of the user mindset and accept that you want to move forward in recovery. The withdrawals is the hardest part physically.....by far, but the mental part is just as much of a struggle in the beginning. But, little by little you will feel the monkey getting off of your back because the desire or need to get right will fade and the life of normalcy will begin to reappear. I know you said you didn't tell anyone yet about your situation but even though it is not a comfortable conversation, it is a conversation that needs to be made nonetheless. Once this is out in the open it will make you be more accountable to your program of recovery because people will not only be watching, but they will also be there to support you. Don't let the devil tell you that your a failure because just the simple fact that you want to get this behind you and get your life back is reason enough to celebrate in itself! I don't know where you stand spiritually, but for me reconnecting to my Christian roots really helped me get through the tough times and I met a couple wonderful people who help support me in my struggles through prayer and counsel which is always a win in my book. I hope you are able to push through because there is a light at the end of the tunnel......just get up when you fall and keep looking forward. It is looking backwards that will bring you down. Know where you want to be and go there! You and your family will be better for it in the long run! You can do this!!!!!

dwo2016

We all go through these phases when we begin our walk to recovery. We doubt our ability to beat the struggle and then the opportunity presents itself and we give in. Dont beat yourself up about the past because its not how many times you fall that matters.....its how many times you pick yourself up and keep moving forward, leaving the past in the past and focusing on what you need to do to get to where you are going. And where you are going is being back to who you need to be for your family and those around you and most importantly so you can start to feel good about yourself again. It is possible and just the fact that you are willing to admit your failures and reaching out for help tells me that you are really wanting this. That is all it takes! Get rid of any of the oxy's so you aren't tempted going forward and find someone to talk to and call when you are feeling vulnerable. You can do this!!!! Also, call out to Jesus, he is always there and is waiting for you to ask him in. You will be surprised the help that is waiting in his word.Best of luck and God bless.