Just started Suboxone and have already messed up!!
So, a little history..
I have been taking (orally) oxycodone (or hydrocodone if I couldn’t get oxy) for about 3 years straight. However, I used spontaneously for about 10 years. No one knows about my addiction. I have three young kids, a great job, a fantastic husband, and a loving family. However, I am not ready to admit this to anyone yet.
I finally saw an Addiction Specialist and started Suboxone 7 days ago. I was scared of what I would feel like on the medicine, so I actually held onto it for a week before I started it. I have taken between 12-16mg a day for the past 6 days. I do. It particularly like the way I feel on it. I get really sleepy, and feel anxious, BUT I had zero withdrawals, so it definitely works.
However, I left the Suboxone at home today (accidentally- running late to work) and didn’t take it. When I got home, I realized I was 28 hours since my last dose and what did I do?? I took a 1/2 of an oxy instead of the subs!!!
So, what do I do now??? I am so upset with myself.....Do I wait until withdrawal start to go back on the subs? I am so disappointed in myself. And I am going to NA meetings and everything. What kind of person am I to relapse only a week after getting clean and WHILE I am on Suboxone?!?!
Any advice would be greatly appreciated!
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