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prayforpeace 01-23-2020 08:13 AM

Hello struggling with addiction

You would never know that I had an addiction to Benadryl and Valium. It started about 1 1/2 years ago. I was diagnosed in 2017 with a rare disease. I was in the hospital for 16 days, 6 of those in ICU and 9 on a regular ward. The disease I was diagnosed with could have killed me, if I had not gotten to the hospital at the time and got the treatment I needed. It is a very rare disease and I am in remission currently from it. It can come back at any time. In June of 2018 I started to take Benadryl to sleep at night. I was/am currently seeing a psychiatrist and therapist to deal with these issues. I started to take more of the Benadryl to get a high effect, sometimes taking upwards of 25-30 some days others I would only take 10-15. I also have OCD and was scared I might be doing damage to my kidneys and body by taking it. So I stopped it, I relapsed this past January taking it again a couple of days on 10-12 and no more. I got my prescription filled for valium and took about 70 within 2 days. I have since stopped that because I am scared I ruined my body and kidneys. Mind you my test for my blood work on kidneys was normal back in December. I don't know how to stop this addiction. I am scared of my disease coming back, because if you don't recognize it in time, it can kill you. I don't want to live this way anymore with taking Benadryl and valium. I just need some encouragement. I was never like this before I was diagnosed with this disease. Any kind words or advice would be appreciated.

Pray for peace

MSNik 01-23-2020 01:50 PM

Re: Hello struggling with addiction
70 valiums in 2 days is an overdose and I cannot believe that didn't kill you.

Please, please, call your prescribing doctor and let them know what is happening, you need to be seen asap and you need to be referred to a facility which can monitor your meds and your medical condition.

Whoever is prescribing your valium needs to be aware of what is going on...and how did you get that many pills? They can only prescribe so many at a time- and you can only fill it every 30 days..

Call your doctor and ask for help. Please. It could save your life.

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