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    Old 06-01-2006, 06:55 PM   #16
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    Can your partner pick up the package so at least you dont have to tell anyone else but him? Can he go to your work and just say that your ordered something and wanted him to pick it up since your not feeling so well? I understand your discomfort and depending on how long you have been together you may not know it but I'm sure he knows something isnt right. I didnt have to tell anyone I had an addiction to pills they already knew something wasnt right. It was telling them that I had an addiction and got clean they all said FINALLY!! Here I thought I was hiding it from all my close ones boy was I stupid. So he might already know something is up and might just be waiting for you to come to him. Keep us posted. Kim

     
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    Old 06-02-2006, 07:37 AM   #17
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    I'm not here to judge or anything. Maybe provide a little faith is all. I have taken Vicodin and Soma for over 2 yrs. now. Taking anywhere from 6-12 or more a day. I usually took them together. Anyway, today is Friday morning I took my last 2 5mg. Vicodin's Tuesday night at 6:30pm. Wednesday morning I started taking Suboxone 2mg. every 12 hrs. I heard about it from a friend at work. I started reading and talking to people on here about it also. I tried quiting cold turkey and tapering both unsuccessful for me. So, I made the choice to do this Suboxone treatment. Not TRY it DO it! I know it's only been 3 days but I feel normal. Normal for an addict is well, different but I do remember what it feels like to be normal normal..ya know? I've taken the Suboxone exactly as he said. I haven't taken anything else. Today is my first day back at work since I started this and I'm very excited! I know some people may see this as exchanging one for another because I used to be one of those people awhile back. I decided do whatever YOU need to do to stop your addiction to anything. I now know what it is to be addicted to something..unfortunately. But for people who judge.."Those who live in glass houses...Watch were you take your shower."

    I don't know how to say thank you to the kind words and harsh ones I have received. They gave me strength. They were my wake up call, my hope, my faith, and my Northern Star. Love to all...

     
    Old 06-02-2006, 09:39 AM   #18
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    Thank you for your response.

    My thoughts....however....I've done so much research on hydrocodone and addiction. I have been taking 10/325's for over 5 years. Several. I am just a firm believer in, if you can take the withdrawals, take them. I just dealt with it. It sucked and it was probably the hardest thing I've ever had to go through, but I did it. I didn't want to have to take ANYTHING. I know that some may think "if you don't have to put yourself through it, why do it"? I can't answer that for many, but for me it's because I felt that if I was going to quit, I wanted to suffer the most severe consequences as a reminder to never do it again. Sometimes it takes a horrific experience for us to wake up and clean up. This may be a bad example.....but a child for example...they slack off in school all year when they are perfectly capable of passing with good grades, their parents send them to summer school to compensate for their lack of concern with their education and behavior.... parents do that once or twice and the child see's it as an "out". "Well, who cares if I mess up again, my parents will save me and I'll still move on by making up my class". I just don't want to know that there is an easier way. I guess I just wanted to take the hard way out. I knew if I did, using again would be a much easier decision to make regarding saying "no more". Everyone is different though. I am on day 15 now I think, I'm doing okay. I'm functioning. Is it as easy as it was before? Hell no. Do I feel up to my full potential, absolutely not. Am I smiling as much, no to that also....but...I know that when I do...it will be because I toughed out a severe situation and I just feel that I will be prouder of my accomplishment that way. Sorry, just my input. I wish you the best with the route you've selected, it sounds like you are doing great and I'm very happy for you. Take care now and always.

     
    Old 06-02-2006, 09:50 AM   #19
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    Good Afternoon everyone,

    I am on day 2 of no hydro and it is very tiring, but my mental will is still strong. i had to drag myself into work this AM and the"package" of hydro came and my co-worker disposed of it for me. God knows what he did, but i have no idea where it is. The package was a fat script of hydro. i celebrated a small victory by not opening and accepting it and gobbling the 2 that I normally take at a time.

    i was amazed that i was able to sleep through the night. I was expecting NO SLEEP at all until early next week. Maybe it will hit later- DARN! The OTC medications reccommended by JAM338 at the top of this forum page have helped. i am fortunate that i have enough liquid assets to purchase everything as it was close to $200. i do not care - I've spent more since January on pain meds via online doctors.

    i am home now and will rest after I run (proably walk) on our treadmill for 35 mins. I did that last night feeling sooooo bad and very achy and it was the BEST thing I could have done. i actually got a rush of energy and felt slightly normal again.

    Gotta go!

     
    Old 06-02-2006, 10:00 AM   #20
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    YIPPEE!!!!! I AM SO PROUD OF YOU! And to heck with your co-worker and where the package went...so long as it didn't come anywhere near you. I'm very proud of you, keep up the good work!!!

     
    Old 06-04-2006, 06:45 AM   #21
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    Good Morning Everyone on this thread. I am posting so it goes up on the page and to let you know that i am 12 hours into day 4 of no hydro. Nice victory. The physcial w/d hopefully should be lessening after today and I am hoping for that.

    I must say that excercise has helped immensely. After exercising I feel great for a few hours.

    ave a great Sunday.

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    Old 06-05-2006, 07:49 AM   #22
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    I'm very happy for you. Overall, how do you feel though? I forgot how long you had been using the hydrocodone, can you remind me of how long and how much you were taking? That has a great deal to do with how long it takes someone to get over it and to go through the withdrawals. If you reviewed all of my posts, you will see that I've been on this drug for 5 years. Several of those years I took 12-16 per day. The 10/325's. Large amt. of narcotic, low amt. of tylenol. For a about 11 months I went down to 8-10 per day. I was taking up to 6-8 a day until exactly May 12th, I only had 8 left so had to take a few each day. Monday, May 15th I took the last 1/2 of my last tablet at 6:00 a.m. that day and haven't had one since, I believe that puts me at day 22 today. This is how long I quit the first time and caved. I have no access to any and don't intend to try. As I said, this time was a little easier but I still had withdrawal symtoms 7-14 days after I stopped. I still have a few....sneezing (not nearly as often as I was the first 2 weeks), yawning...(again, not nearly as often as I was the first 2 weeks).... that feeling that something is missing. Yes, I will admit, I miss taking them...I miss the euphoric feeling, but I don't miss having to chase them down and feel the humiliation I did when I was doing whatever I had to do to get them. Just wondering about your situation as well. Also, have you told your boyfriend yet? I was curious how he reacted to your telling him and whether or not he is being supportive. I will also tell you that I'm very proud of you. Day 4! I know probably just as much as anyone with the amount of time I've been on these and how much I've taken, how difficult they are to quit. Just keep up the good work...it is still very easy to fall back into taking them especially if you have access. How much was it costing you to use the online services? I heard they are difficult regarding obtaining scripts because you have to fax them so much medical info. etc...if you don't have a script to send them. Just wondering how you managed that. Take care and write me back when you have time.

     
    Old 06-05-2006, 08:32 AM   #23
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    Strongwilled 22 days thats great really proud of you I found myself slipping after about 6wks but I caught it and stopped it I NEVER want to go back to where I was. The damn craving caught up with me. The cravings are the part I wish will just go away and leave me alone. Well lets see last time I've used has been 3-4wks and before that it was easter sunday. So thats really good just stay on track I'm very proud of you and Mike have you told the sig other yet? I hope so he will be very supportful and if is aware can really help you when those triggers or craving come in and start to take over. Mine fiance has been very supportive and knows when I am just craving you know the addict comes out in me and he just stands his ground and lets me go one with my day. So really talk to him. Strongwilled keep it up. Kim

     
    Old 06-05-2006, 12:03 PM   #24
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    Strongwilled and Kim,

    I cannot thank you enough for your support. What an incredibly low day that I am having. I had to leave work early because I could not take it and the stress and a pounding headache. This is a demanding week, and I do not know how I am going to be able to make it. I am on day 5 and still have no energy, although my digstive system is better and I am religiously taking the vitamin and mineral supplements that are mentioned at the top of this section of health boards. i am sleeping well now with no restless legs. Thank god!

    How I got the meds via a legitimate telemedicine provide was not difficult at all since I had detailed records of my condition. These providers do serve a purpose for those in legitimate pain and w/o insurance. I AM AN ADDICT! and was getting from one provider and my local doctor. (6-8 10/325 at my worst in late May) I am not going to post anymore due to the agreement that I read about this board. Let's focus on recovery!
    (MODERATOR - i HOPE THAT i DID NOT SAY TOO MUCH!)

    In reference to my partner of almost 10 years. No, i have not told him. I live on the east coast about 2.5 hours from Rehoboth Beach on the Atlantic Ocean and we are fortunate enough to have a small cottage there. We were to go there this weekend with friends and I bailed due to the "flu". Each day that goes by and I suffer in silence is an example of "lack of trust". We do not cheat on each other and treat our relationship similar to the vows of commitment, trust, and honesty in a good marriage between a man and a woman. My addiction to pills is a secret similar to if I cheated on him and had an affair. I feel so bad about it!

    What makes it so worse is I was building my addiction while his brother who is my age got into Cocaine and Crystal meth (powerful amphetamine party drug) and lost everything and endded up in rehad in Los Angeles. I have to tel him that I am exactly like his brother, but I caught it in time.

    I really am making this out to be more of an issue, but that is how I feel right now.
    Also, no desire to use at all. I am angry that I, and I alone, did this to myself by taking the pills prescribed to me for a week and loving them and seeking more! if I had stopped after the two week script had run out then I might not be here now.

     
    Old 06-05-2006, 12:17 PM   #25
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    Hi,

    Listen, I hope to catch you while you are still up. 5 days is not long at all in the sense that I can completely understand why you feel weak and can't function as well. I'm on day 22 and I still get those feelings !!! IT WILL BE OKAY, I PROMISE YOU. Time is the ONLY thing that can take away even the worst feelings.

    I only want to say one thing and I will let you go until you are ready to talk again. Your addiction is not like your partners brothers. Yes, addicts are addicts...but believe me, I weighed the pro's and con's of that, continuously telling myself that "at least I didn't get addicted to street drugs that were more easily accessible". After I told myself that it was all the same thing, I realized...no...it's not. A lot of doctors WON'T or DON'T tell you how addictive this drug can be and many of them WON'T or DON'T monitor the time you are on the medication without weaning you off after the correct time frame of only a couple of weeks. I don't know why but some just don't. Mine certainly didn't. Like I said in my first post...he was giving me 60 every 10-12 days. Told me to go see specialists, but never followed up...and no, I don't expect to be baby-sat and I do blame myself partially especially since they give those little info/fact sheets with the scripts....BUT, I also trusted my doctor way too much, thinking he wouldn't give me more of anything that I couldn't handle or that he wouldn't continuously prescribe something to me that I would have such extreme difficulty getting off of. SO NO, it's not the same thing sweetie. You were under a doctors care and you became addicted to a highly addictive prescription narcotic and even though it makes you feel worse knowing the extremes you went to in order to have the medication, you were still at one time handed refill after refill and tell me really, did your doctor truly discuss this drug with you in detail? I mean, that's why they get paid the big bucks right? I've met doctors that truly care about their patients, I've met those that give you what you want to shut you up, I've met those that are so scared of losing their license and practice medicine to the very last detail they learned and are so careful about utilizing all options less narcotics, and I've met doctors that do the bare minimum and will keep you on something until THEY DECIDE it might be time to re-think the situation due to a potential audit or what not. You speak as if you guys are so close and have the kind of love I hope to find someday, do me a favor...please try to tell him. I know you might be thinking that if you can kick this and never look back, you won't have to tell him but to live with that secret will be difficult also if you love each other like that. HE WILL UNDERSTAND if you address it in a soft way that focuses on it being a "prescription narcotic" and not a street narcotic. Believe me, if I can tell my boss, you can tell him. I had to tell my boss....I have such a great job I wanted him to know what was going on with me and he was very understanding when it came to my having to call it quits early or whatever, I am salary but I also am fortunate to have him. Hope to hear from you soon. Please take care of yourself. Day 5 is great, long road to emotional recovery as I'm speaking from experience but having it out in the open with the emotional support of your partner will help, I promise. Take care now.

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    Old 06-05-2006, 01:45 PM   #26
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    Strongwilled -

    Thank you again for your support. I just got off the phone leaving messages with several substance abuse counselors in my medial plan for an assessment on how best to do my recovery - talk therapy, group therapy, N.A. etc.

    I actually paid by myself for 6 months of weekly visits when dealing with the whole "gay - coming out" and it sure cost me a bundle. I'll let my excellent insurance handle this one!

    Yes, i am getting geared up to be honest and tell him and it sure will be great to get family support and to have help to watch for signs if i were to truly actually need a pain killer (car accident, hospitalization, etc.) and did not take it as prescribed. He already wonders why I do not drink alcohol like I used to (evenings, socially) The truth is I have NEVER mixed medication (even aspirin, tylenol) and alcohol for fear of a synergisitc effect = DEATH! So I have had no drinks since january. Sure, I take a beer or drink beacause thaqt is what I normally do at a party and when able to be alone dump it down the drain so people THINK I am drinking. Really sad what I went through to hide my addiction, plus what a waste of good liquor!

    i actually look forward to a time in about a month when I can occiasionally have alcohol.

    DAMN! my partner just called and reminded me that a work friend will come over tonight. Guess i will have to do it after he leaves.

     
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    Hi! I am new to this forum. As a matter of fact, this is my first reply. I have spent the last 30 or 45 minutes reading through different people's stories, and, yes, it actually does make it better to hear how others have made it through.

    Here's my story--

    I had a car accidnt about 7 years ago. Shortly afterwards, I started taking hydrocodone. At first it was for the pain. Quickly there after, I started noticing the great feeling it gave me. It was such a burst of energy. I found that I was nice to everyone, very talkative, and I could work without limits, requiring very little sleep. I would wake myself up in the middle of the night just to take another pill. That went on for quite a while. Slowly, I went from 1 or 2 a day to 5 or 6, ultimately ending up at about 25 or 30 a day. In the latter days, I wouldn't count the pills. I guess that was a way of not coming to grips with this problem.

    I ended up having one back surgery in 2003 (partial laminectomy), followed by a major 3-level fusion in the summer of 2005. I could tell I was REALLY addicted when I was in the hopital with the last surgery. Not only did I sneak pills into the hospital; to take on top of the pain pump I had been given, but the traditional amounts of morphine and dilaaudid just weren't working for me. My neurosurgeon commented that he had never had to give someone so much dilaudid following surgery to alleviate the pain. I told him I just had an inherently high tolerance to pain meds.

    Well...what started as a "majic pill" turned around on me and made my life miserable. I hated to talk to anyone, I noticed my job was suffering, and [frankly] noone really wanted to be around me anyone (not that I wanted to be around them, anyway). Thje perfect day for me was one where I was ALL ALONE. I had always been somewhat of a loner, but this was taken to a new extreme.

    Outside of work, I did NOTHING. I went home, watched TV, eat, and went to sleep. I hated for the phone to ring. As a matter of fact, people always took it as a "hit or miss" to whether or not they could reach me. Sometimes I'd sit there and let it ring, without a care in the world for who it may be.

    Financially, it was killing me as well. I was doing the same thing that I have read about on this forum. I would "doctor shop" and go to different pharmacies claiming I didn't have insurance. I really reached a low the last 6 months, for I was forging RX's left and right. Although I'm not doing this anymore, I'm deathly afraid that this is going to come back on me.

    The big kicker financially, though, has to be the on-line pharmacies. I learned the ins and outs of the on-line pharmacy world. Some of them require you talk to a doctor for like 30 seconds, who then will prescribe either 90 or 120 Hydro 10/500 or 10/650 with 3 refills. Others required nothing more than a credit card. It is unbelievable. These places still call my cell phone letting me know "that my refill is ready for my pain meds." Just today, I noticed that one of these places actually charged my credit card without getting my permission. Now, I've got to change all my credit card information.

    This internet thing was costly. The places that required the doctor "consultation" charged between 100 - 150 bucks for the 30 second discussion, and then about $1-2 a pill for the medicine. The other ones (that didn't require the "consult") were getting up to $4 a pill. It didn't matter to me, though, as long as I could get my pills. Who cared if I could pay my light bill, car note, etc?? (as long as I got my pills)

    So here's what happened---
    About 3 weeks ago, I reached an all-time low. I wasn't sure if I really wanted to go on or not. I decided to break my silence and let my family in on my little secret. I was expecting everyone to really look down on me. I guess that I had been "emotionally numb" for so long, it was hard to fathom that my family might just really care. Anyway, they found out about suboxone treatment and talked to me about it.

    I decided to go for it! I had tried to quit on my own a few times in the past, but I never seemed to have the discipline. Well, the doctor required that I be off the medication for 48 hours prior to showing up. He also suggested that I take a little time off of work.

    The weekend before last I stopped the medication, starting my 48 hour waiting period. I also took vacation from work for all of last week. The first 2 days were BRUTAL. I had all the normal side effects and was truly a JERK in every sense of the word. I went in his office on Tuesday (after Memorial Day). By then I was actually feeling better. He talked with me for a while and then sent me to the pharmacy to get 2 pils (2mg each). He gave me one at his office and asked me to take the other that night. I had to do this for the following 3 days. Each day he increased my dosage, and on Friday he gave me a script for 6 days (8mg 2xday). I have to go back on Thursday to get another week's worth.

    Last week went by OK. I can't say it was easy, but it wasn't as hard as I expected. Part of the reason it probably seemed easy was because I was off of work and was able to just lay around all day. I could hardly sleep at night, but that didn't really matter since I had cleared my calendar and had nothing to do.

    OK- so today is my first day back at the office. Other than my first 48 hours, this has been the hardest day yet. I am having stomach pains, am sweating a lot, and am experiencing more cravings than I did the last few days. Also, I don't feel like doing any work. It's weird because I don't mind sitting here typing into this forum, but the though of doing any real work on my computer seems dreadful. Like many of the reast of you, I focus on tomorrow and the fact that it'll hopefully be better than today. Clearly, time is the best medicine for sopmething like this.

    Something that is of particular interest to me is around the dialouge about benzo's. I have had anxiety problems for some time, and xanex has seemed to provide the short-term relief I needed. I can honestly say, though, that I've never had an addiction problem with the xanex. I know this because of several reasons: (1) I have run out on NUMEROUS occassions and didn't suffer any w/d's, (2) I have always used xanex on an "as needed" basis and didn't take it just to be taking it, and (3) I haven't experienced a build-up of tolerance like I did with the opiates.

    When I went to the doctor for my suboxone, he gave me a pamhlet with some useful information on it. One thing that stuck out was a warning about the dangerous interactions the suboxone could have with benzo's. I didn't ask the doctor any questions and just took it at "face value" figuring it must be dangerous. I had thought all along that the xanex would have probably helped with the opiate w/d's, but I didn't pursue it, given the warning. I have read on this site where many people are taking benzo's daily and aren't experiencing any problems. Is this warning legit? Or does the doctor post this (and drug test) just to keep you off of another potentially additctive drug?

    Thanks to all of you who take the time to read this, and I look forward to hearing your thoughts on the benzo issue.

     
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    Elvis1209 -

    Thank you for posting your story and i wish you continued success using suboxone in getting off opiates.

    Regarding benzos, I am using a .25 mg XANAX at night to help with sleep and the anxiety a cold turkey w/d can cause. However, i will switch to benaryl tonight (It is will 6 days at 7PM tonight off hydro for me) The main reason that i am not using benzos anymore is becuase i have read that the addiction to that can be very hard to break. Hopefully 6 evenings of use will not affect me (w/d wise from benzos)

    I would not mix drugs at all. Try to use your sub and not use the bezo and ask you doctor if you have questions about anxiety.

    i am feeling better , a little bit now, but still waking up in the AM and getting going is still very challenging! It seems to me that the early afternoons I get really depressed and low. i do not crave hydro then, just a overall low feeling comes on. When Elvis talks about being at work and not wanting to do any actual work i know EACTLY what he means. i used the "flu excuse" for time off during my at home detox and will leave the office early (3PM) and go home and rest. Then I force myself to exercise on the treadmill and that helps so much with mood elevation and energy for a few hours.

    Keeo the quit and have a clean day. Re-reading all of the posts really helps when I am emotionally drained.

     
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    Hello, Strongwilled here. I'm going on day 23. I have said in some of my posts that people shouldn't try and substitute anything...that suffering the worst withdrawal symtoms is the best form of "therapy". If you ready my posts you will see my story. I was prescribed Xanex for anxiety about a year ago, I remember still being on my hydro when I tried it for the first time. I hated it!!! It made me so damn tired, even trying to cut the pills. She gave me a pretty high dosage (the 1mg) I cut them into fourths and they still made me tired. As of May 15th (the day I took my last hydro) I had about 57 of the 60 tablets left from over a year ago. I didn't even try them until last week (Monday) I was 2 weeks into no hydro and was reading over and over again how they helped with the withdrawals. I haven't been myself since May 15th (or maybe us hydro addicts just forget how it feels to really be "ourselves") funny how we say that when technically we HAVEN'T been our true selves since we first became recreational users/abusers of the drug. Anywho, tried the Xanex....again, only 1/4 of the tabets, knowing my body had been drained already from the withdrawals and didn't want to feel overly tired... I can't tell you with any certainty wether or not they helped with my withdrawals because I think I haven't been drug free for so long I forgot what being normal feels like. But I do admit to having tried the Xanex for withdrawal relief by the 3rd week. I don't like them and can't ever see becoming addicted to them. I've never been addicted to anything but the hydro. Highly addicted I mean. It's called a drug of choice. It's funny too because I remember a paticular talk show where it showed a woman highly addicted to Xanex (a housewife) and how she checked herself into rehab from them. She digatally recorded her diary and she was a mess the first few days. I had already tried these after seeing that show and was shocked someone could get addicted to those but I'm sure others are shocked that we can get addicted to hydro also :-)

    I'm happy the treatment with the other has made things a little easier for you (you were up to taking A LOT)..... read my posts and you'll see my min. and max. also. To make what could be a longer post short...I still have 55 of the 60 tablets of the Xanex left and they are just sitting in my medicine cabinet. I haven't used these to help me get over the withdrawals and yes, even at day 23 into my sobriety... I still feel weird. I feel BETTER, don't get me wrong...but damn I miss those little yellow pills. I know people will say they don't miss them and don't think about them but I would really like to see who says no and who says (after 23 days of sobriety)....when offered one "what's the harm in taking 1/2 a pill... I've been good"...that would be the true test of strength for a true addict. I'll be the first to admit it...as a single mother of a teenager (whom I adore) and a great career.... hell yes I miss the pills. BUT.... (again, read my posts)....it got to be a second job and too scary for me finding ways to get them. Your story was so full of comfort to me even though you are probably miserable. I would love to be a part of your road to recovery, please write me.... I want to help support you through this and try to be here for you even if only through this forum. I've done the "drug free" childbirth thing (my son came too quickly for me to get anything)... I've suffered through very painful things in life, but I have to tell you and everyone else, quitting the hydro was/is MISERABLE. I am taking a lot of vitamins and MAKING myself get up and do stuff. It's been hard. This past weekend, I cleaned for the first time in 3 weeks AND I washed and waxed my car. This is a person who is a CLEAN FREAK (my house is like a damn museum and sterile as a hospital) normally...and my car, every week I would wash and wax the damn thing...after quitting hydro c/t it took 3 weeks for me to do that. Yes, it was a little harder than being on the medication but not as difficult as it would have been the first 2 weekends.

    Sorry for taking up so much of your time, just felt like talking and responding....lot's and lot's of luck and hugs to you and PLEASE keep me posted. My2kn is another I have "fell for" on this site just by his words. We need to support each other. Even with family and friends, nobody can truly understand how we feel unless they've been here with us, it stinks.

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    Re: Hydrocodone withdrawls & need advice

    Good Morning My2kn,

    Just wanted to tell you how proud I am of you. You are doing great!!! We are both going to get through this because we WANT to. I keep wondering to myself...."gosh, I'm on day 23.... is it going to be the 25th day, the 30th day.... which day will it be when I am completely 100%"???? Can you believe that? 23 days into this, I keep saying "look forward" but I still think about how long it is really going to take. Gosh, I remember the first time I quit, I only made it to day 22. I have to buy myself a party hat and cake tonight (now that I've been eating normal for the past week).... to celebrate my 23rd day :-)

    You keep in touch with me! Have that talk with him also! Did you after the friend left? I am really interested in how that goes. I sure wish I had a loved one's support. I'm doing this on my own...yeah, the boss knows but he's quarky anyway... he's supportive in the "yeah, bring your blueprints and laptop home"..... sort of way but I can't really talk to him. Maybe that's why I've been bugging you so much :-) Looking forward to hearing from you.

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