It appears you have not yet Signed Up with our community. To Sign Up for free, please click here....

Addiction & Recovery Message Board

Did I do the right thing?

Post New Thread   Closed Thread
LinkBack Thread Tools Search this Thread
Old 11-15-2007, 03:26 AM   #1
Senior Veteran
Join Date: Mar 2007
Location: IL, USA
Posts: 567
captnanny HB User
Question Did I do the right thing?

I have posted here several times. I read the threads every morning getting wisdom and hope from them. This past weekend I got so depressed, I could not go lower than 50 mcg of fentanyl. The depression was so bad my doc was thinking about putting me in a hospital. Thank God I can call him on the weekends. So sunday night he ordered clonidine pills and the clonidine patch. He also put me on 8 norco's a day. Only ordering three days worth and won't call it in sooner. That's fine, I don't want to trade in one addiction for another. He wanted to do the taper more slowly and with less depression. As soon as I took the patch off, I felt this huge weight being lifted off my shoulders. I was constantly worried if it was broken, not working etc. Now 72 hours later, the withdrawals are terrible. I had to take today off from work. I only work two days a week, since surgery in April. I wake up feeling like I have to run, but fast and out of my skin. I feel fluish, sweating, diarhea, shakes. The clonidine works, I must admit today is a little better than yesterday, still not bearable but better.
After reading JCS post I can totally relate to not wanting to take responsibility. I am AFRAID OF EVERYTHING. I was or am a product of the psych wards back in the 80's and early 90's/anyone see Girl Interrupted? That was me plus 5 more years. They took all my parents insurance money, 3million dollars and kicked me out when it ran out. that was a blessing in disguise. thats when I found pain meds. They let me face reality. Now I just don't think I can.

Sponsors Lightbulb
Old 11-15-2007, 04:45 AM   #2
Senior Member
jkm1201's Avatar
Join Date: Mar 2007
Location: The Mitten
Posts: 195
jkm1201 HB User
Wink Re: Did I do the right thing?

hi there.... sounds like your having a rough time lately. I'm so sorry that your going through this. I remember like it was yesterday- the depression brought me to my knee's multilple times. Can I tell you that it gets better?... much better... probly not what you wanted to hear right now, that it 'gets' better, but it does- honest. May I suggest something that helped me? Exercise. Yeah, I know.... I thought the same thing when it was suggested to me, but hear me out... The feeling you describe of wanting to run fast and out of your skin- I felt that. I can remember it clearly. One crazy day I made myself do just that- Run. As fast as I could, as long as I could... you know what? I felt great. Exhilerated and alive again. It was worth doing again thats for sure, and i got healthy doing it. Also, try reading a good novel... let yourself get lost in the characters, don't let obsessive thoughts take over. And, try to find a hobby of some kind. I took up photography and I'm loving how much of my whole life it fills. I didn't know I needed to be so creative...

Yes, I saw girl interrupted. I was there too... fighting to get out. We made it.
Take care of yourself, jkm

Old 11-15-2007, 06:29 PM   #3
Senior Veteran
Join Date: Jul 2003
Location: ky
Posts: 985
spark-o-cet HB User
Re: Did I do the right thing?

someone on here said that they are now making 12.5mcg patches.if so,use a 25mcg patch with a 12.5mcg patch and see how it goes.cant be as bad as going from 50 to 25.that fentayal is strong stuff and i dont think it was meant to be got off of when it was made.mostly late stage cancer patients used it in the past and did not have to worry about gettin off it,but in the last 10yrs more drs have used it for chronic pain.and if a person has chronic pain and the patch helps then use it and dont worry about gettin off it.with the pills and the 12.5 patch you should be able to get down to the 25mcg patch,but it will be a struggle.good luck-spark

Closed Thread

Similar Threads
Thread Thread Starter Board Replies Last Post
Is there such a thing as AD prevention? JohnR41 Alzheimer's Disease & Dementia 51 04-20-2010 02:50 PM
Wondering if I am the right girl for him?? deeneedsfixed Relationship Health 11 04-07-2010 04:51 PM
24/7 Nausea, Dizziness, Pain in Upper Right Abdomen... IBS, Liver, Gallstones?? abeautifulash Gallbladder 6 12-21-2009 06:05 PM
Have I done the right thing? bells1 Relationship Health 9 04-02-2007 05:26 AM
break-up and want to know if right thing? deejay11 Relationship Health 4 12-06-2006 07:09 AM
Hope It's the right thing to do. Need Replies tbltennis1 Relationship Health 7 11-03-2006 12:47 AM
I am SOOO relieved right now!!! feelbad Pain Management 10 02-11-2006 09:42 PM
Lower right pain below rib cage APJ1 Liver & Pancreas Disorders 295 02-03-2006 10:39 AM
Am I doing the right thing? Snails Relationship Health 39 07-09-2005 10:02 AM
An update... I hope I am doing the right thing. StormGirl Relationship Health 22 01-24-2005 11:52 PM

Thread Tools Search this Thread
Search this Thread:

Advanced Search

Posting Rules
You may not post new threads
You may not post replies
You may not post attachments
You may not edit your posts

BB code is On
Smilies are On
[IMG] code is Off
HTML code is On
Trackbacks are Off
Pingbacks are Off
Refbacks are Off

Sign Up Today!

Ask our community of thousands of members your health questions, and learn from others experiences. Join the conversation!

I want my free account

All times are GMT -7. The time now is 06:04 AM.

Site owned and operated by HealthBoards.comô
© 1998-2018 HealthBoards.comô All rights reserved.
Do not copy or redistribute in any form!