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chester4 07-18-2005 10:55 AM

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I'm glad I found this thread as the last two months for me have been exactlly like some of your experiences. I first had blood in my stool when straining and now am petrified to have a coonoscopy as I have diagnosed myself with colon cancer! Also recently had a scare where something looked suspicious on my mammogram and spent 2 weeks in hell before they ruled out anything! also have night sweats, insomnia, body aches at times and get really tired. I know itis proberbly stress but am so anxious all the time it is hard to eat or sleep or focus! like I said now is the fear of the colonoscopy and I'm sure it will be something else after that!

Jitterygal 07-18-2005 12:15 PM

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I was 28 when I first started with panic disorder and now I am 40, so I don't think age has much to do with it. I also think that any major life change ( i.e. new job, moving, new baby, getting married/divorced, someone dying) can trigger anxiety. Just my thoughts, gang... ;) Jitterygal

Lilly10 07-18-2005 02:09 PM

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That is how it goes you get tested for one illness that test comes out normal so you are on to another illness! Because your symptoms are still there and you think well if I feel this way there has to be something wrong with me. That is the cycle I am in right now! This has been an awful summer so far most of my time I'm at the doctors or researching diseases!

uk_worried_guy 07-18-2005 02:18 PM

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this thread is almost like looking in a mirror - one of the worst parts i find is the fact that as soon as i get 'over' one worry - i immediately start on another!!! to give you an idea, in the last 2yrs, ive been *seriously* worried about having evrything from a brain tumor, to leukemia, stomach cancer, hiv/aids, acoustic neuroma and more.....

chester4 07-19-2005 11:41 AM

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I too have spent most of my free time since May researching illnesses. I started with colon cancer then breast cancer,lupus, arthritis,and multiple sclerosis! I am seeing my PCP this week i can't live like this any more. Has any one tried an antidepressant with sedation components? Is there one?

uk_worried_guy 07-19-2005 12:45 PM

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My doctor tried me on, amongst other things, propranolol hydrochloride, to deal with anxiety. While yes, it got rid of the *physical symptoms* of the anxiety, it did nothing to help me with the mentally tiring constant stress of being utterly convinced i have some horrible terminal illness.

And, yes, i also find that the amount of time i waste online researching symptoms and illnesses and things is truly outstanding and, actually - when i think about it - quite embarassing. But, on the plus side, i could probably sit a medical exam now, and not fail ;-)

sponge70 07-19-2005 11:38 PM

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I Know How Everbody Feels Here. My Problem Is Dizziness And Jelly Legs. I Have To Hang On To A Cart In The Stores. I Too Look Up Everything In My Medical Books Which I Have Enough To Fill A Library. I Have Been On Xanax And Imipramine For About 10 Years Now. The Xanax Lifts My Mood But Does Nothing For My Dizziness.

Jitterygal 07-20-2005 08:11 AM

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I've probably said this before, but jelly legs is my main symptom--it is so annoying!!!! :mad: But it is getting better--I just try to make the best of it and keep smiling while gritting my teeth... :D Jitterygal

atomato 07-21-2005 04:53 PM

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Hello fellow health worriers,

That's me too, I've been this way my whole life. Sometimes I'm fine for a couple of years and then it just hits me again. I've had problems with muscle twitches for about five year now and everytime they start getting really noticeable I start freaking out. I've been to the neurologist several times, had MRIs, EMGs and my condition is benign. I currently am convinced I have Parkinson's, last month I thought I had ALS. My prayers go out to anyone who has these things. My current systems are the twitches, muscle jerks before I fall asleep (and I sometimes feel like I'm jerking a little during the day and am totally obessessed with this at the moment), pressure in the back of my head, shakiness all over. I take Gabapentin (generic Neurontin) and will be starting Klonopin tomorrow. I would like to recommend a book to all of you that I just started reading. It's called "It's Not All In Your Head: How worrying about your health could be making you sick, and what you can do about it." It's by Gordon J. G. Asmundson and Steven Taylor, both health psychologists. They start the book off with some patient stories and after I read the first one I said, " Oh my God, that's me!!" Hopefully I'm allowed to recommend books in this post. I think this one will help me and hopefully it will help some of you too. Try not to worry!

mandaj 07-22-2005 05:54 AM

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Last year I had a mild illness. It cleared up after a few weeks but has left me with anxiety cause everytime I get the slightest ache or pain I convince my self its serious. I have never worried about my health before. I am now a nervous wreck. If I get a headache I have a tumour, stomach pain I have cancer and so on. I did throw away my big medical book because I was constantly looking up my symptoms and diagnosing myself!

I am on medication for past 4 weeks which is helping. I have been refered for couselling which I think will really help as well.

I just want to feel normal again. Sometimes I feel like I am in some kind of fog. My head feels muzzy and I feel spaced out if that makes sense.

chester4 07-22-2005 07:24 AM

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mandaj- It all makes sense to me as it is just like what I have been through. I saw some blood in my stool and then became obsessed. I was too anxious to have a colonoscopy and began having panic attacks. When your head feels "muzzy" it may be a little panic going on. I have just started on Paxil which is an antidepressant but also very helpful with anxiety and panic. I hope it works for me and pray that you will also have some relief!

dinney 07-22-2005 08:06 AM

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Truly understand all that you are going through..have dealt with anxiety/depression for so many years..lost my father when I was 18, he was only 45 and had a massive heart attack at home..I was the oldest of 9 children at mom was a stay at home mom, not much money so FELT like I should be the caretaker..then married when I was 19 to a man that thought I was his mother and I also took that role on too..we were married for 28 yrs...he wouldn't hold a job down so I worked 3..anyway..mentally and physically I was shot..started the panic attacks/depression..not good..medication/counseling helped..had 2 sons that just didnt' understand because dad would say "oh your mom is doing "her thing"..Anyway, need to shorten this a divorce..went through being stalked, harassed for several years by my X..It's been 13 yrs. since divorce..still going through anxiety from time to time..think I have heart problems, then it's cancer, then it's something else..My dr. is about sick of me but not as sick of me as I am of myself...taking anti-anxiety pills (have for about 20 yrs. I think)..she tries me on an anti-depressent but then I can't/don't want to deal with side effects..I already have dizziness, blurry vision, foggy vision, just feel rotten most days anyway...

Hey sorry this is so long but haven't talked to anyone about all of this forever and sometimes it helps to just have someone to talk too...Thanks and God Bless...

Jitterygal 07-22-2005 09:01 AM

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Sorry to hear of your pain--I wish I could do something to help...I had an unsupportive husband when I was having panic attacks, too, and he used to ignore me when I would run to his side for comfort. But I had the support of my family, and that helped. I finally divorced my husband, too, and it was like a breath of fresh air!! If you have any family who understands, lean on them...also, there are many support groups that may help. I went to one for a while that was an hour from my house, but it was worth the drive to have that support system...I will pray for you, Jitterygal

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