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    Old 01-22-2007, 03:34 PM   #1
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    Fear of schiz!!!need your reply's

    Does anyone on this board, have an intense fear of schizophrenia besides me?

    If so, what is your story, and how did you overcome it, or how are you dealing with it?

    I just can't stop worrying about developing this disorder, the fear gets so overwhelming at times, it can just send me into a terrible state of panic.I feel as if I am thinking myself into having it, that I am actually paranoid instead of anxious. I stay worried all the time that I am going to start having delusions or hearing things.

    If any of you have this fear,PLEASE RESPOND!!!!!!!! Thanks

     
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    Old 01-22-2007, 04:02 PM   #2
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    I know it is hard to let this go, but you have to find a way to work on this obsession and it IS an obsession. You wouldn't know that you had schizophrenia. I recommend you talk with a therapist about it and consider either meditation of cognitive behavioral therapy and potentially some antianxiety medication.

    Have you ever seen anything that wasn't really there? Are there people you talk to that don't exist? Has anyone noticed that you were talking to an empty chair or followed things with your eyes that don't exist. These are all of the things that would be signs of schizoprenia. One of my best friends in the world developed schizophrenia around the same time I started my second round of anxiety dissorder. I watched him slowly lose his mind. He would come home from work and accuse me of things that I didn't do and then get really violent about them. He stomped down the main street of our town with a shot gun one day. He also saw snakes all over the ground when there wasn't anything there. He spoke in a language that nobody except him understood and then would get mad when we wouldn't understand. He then proceeded to go home and watch a blank TV screen and laugh hysterically for hours until his father took him to the hospital. He had no idea that what he was seeing and hearing wasn't real. I have to tell you that watching that all go down helped me to understand that my neurosis was nothing compared to schizophrenia. That was one of my biggest fears as well. Trust me, if you are unhappy and thinking all the time (obsessing), then it is more than likely that you have an anxiety dissorder.

    Have you gone to see a doctor about it? If so, what did he say? You really need to work on this issue in particular because it is obviously causing you a lot of distress. There is a difference between fear and paranoia. Paranoia exisits with or without fear as in the things I have sited above. If you are seeing things that aren't there, hearing things that don't exist, or hear people talking that isn't self-talk then it is possible, but so far you have given me nothing to convince me that you have anything other than anxiety dissorder.

    Take care,
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    Old 01-23-2007, 02:40 PM   #3
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    Yes been to my family doc but no PDoc. He said it was anxiety and uped my paxil from 20 mg to 40mg. Which i refuse to do because the side effects of paxil are bad enough at 20 mg, I can only imagine what they would be like at 40mg.

    I just dont know how I am going to get these thoughts of thinking im schizo out of my head. I've never heard things or seen things, have never been paranoid about anything ***arre. I just think that my nervous feelings are going to make me start thinking so negative that end up totally delusional.

     
    Old 01-23-2007, 05:58 PM   #4
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    Don't worry man. What you are going through is particularly common amouung men with anxiety dissorder. I had the same thing. I also tried all kinds of different SSRI's and anti-depressants. All gave me horrible side effects which made my anxiety much worse. Plus Paxil is quite hard to wean yourself off of. I resisted meds after my bad experiences on SSRI's for many years and then 6 months ago I decided it was time to give it another try. I went to an anxiety dissorder specialist here in central Texas. He prescribed me Xanax and it has been a godsend. It really reduced my level of anxiety to almost none. However, the thoughts didn't go away. They were more manageable because of the meds, but not gone, so I started practicing meditation to help me learn to control my thoughts better and it has worked wonders. I have been doing meds and meditation for 6 months now and went from anxiety and panic multiple times daily to almost none. I also went from a very noisy mind with all kinds of stupid obsessive thoughts constantly to a more quiet mind that is capable of relaxation. It has really helped me, so consider a Benzo instead of your SSRI. It can cause dependance just like Paxil, but if it works with no side effects then it is well worth it. I have decided through years of battling this disease that it is definitely going to be with me until the day I die. It is as much a part of me as my right arm, so I can't get rid of it, but with the Xanax and the meditation I am learning how to live with it comfortably. I still get caught off guard with a random thought, but nothing compared to before. I hope you get to a good Pdoc who knows his stuff about anxiety dissorders. If he does try just a Benzo at first. You may have to do some trial and error with your drugs, that is the way it goes. I think the Benzo will give you the best chance of first time success though.

    God luck man and get to that doctor.

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    Old 01-23-2007, 07:37 PM   #5
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    Re: Fear of schiz!!!need your reply's

    needabreak, Great advice from ocdengineer. I'm out of time here, but I just want to say that I can relate 100% to what you're saying. My fear of my fear of losing control and eventually sliding into some black mental hole and never being able to get out was the main thought that was causing me mayhem. Read my post titled "My suggestions for anxiety, panic and obsessive thoughts" (or something like that) and see what I did to eventually VERY comfortably manage and even feel very peaceful.

    Also, from talking to many others on other forums, I now believe that the worst that can happen with this sort of thing is that you can make yourself very uncomfortable day after day, but things won't escalate. It's the belief that they could escalate that helps keep you in the negative loop of thoughts and fear, but again, I firmly believe now that things won't escalate beyond a highly uncomfortable state. You seem to only be suffering from the fear of the fear, as I did, and have no signs of schizophrenia.

    You have to grab the bull by the horns and work on getting your thoughts elsewhere - don't dwell on negative thoughts and images! Get to work and you can turn things around - trust me!!! Take care. I'll be checking back here when I get back to town in a week or so. Steve

     
    Old 01-24-2007, 02:26 AM   #6
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    yup, been there, done that. i know EXACTLY how you feel. first off, your not schiz because you would not be able to type on your computer. secondly, most schiz see, hear, smell things that aint there. and they can become violent. BELIEVE IN YER MEDS. im on 60 mg of paxil plus clorazepam to combat the insomnia. i just went thru my 3rd breakdown in 16 years mainly because of too much stress in my life. i was handling the anxieties quite nicely when the depression got me.

    it takes 3 weeks for any antidepressive to take effect so dont stop the meds but maybe ask yer doctor for some ativan 0.5 to help calm yer mind. your not crazy, nor are you a schiz. you have what probably a couple of million of us have = anxieties. dont drink alcohol and dont take marijuana. stay on the paxil for 3 months and find yourself a place where you feel safe and secure. then tell yourself that I WILL GET BETTER because you will.

     
    Old 01-24-2007, 11:18 AM   #7
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    THANK YOU, MS. MOD. im new and was not sure how to proceed as the posting did not refer to this thread. i am also canadian and ignorant of medical terms and practises in the united states. here we are often isolated with no resources outside of the major cities.

     
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