PDA

View Full Version : Can anybody relate to this? (OCD symptoms?)


melissa529
11-29-2016, 01:10 PM
Hi,

Some things have been bothering me for as long as I can remember and I just wanted to get some opinions on if this seems concerning/if you guys think I should talk to someone or if I'm just freaking out over nothing.

I've always had this obsession with even numbers. I often have to do things twice or multiple times because if I don't it can cause me anxiety. For example, I'll reread sentences over and over again, I'll click the clear button on the microwave exactly 8 times every time, I'll check to make sure the cupboards are closed exactly 2 times, if I'm driving and I hit my brake once I have to do it again to make sure I do it an even number of times, etc etc.

If I don't do these things, I often get stressed out and for some reason these ideas come into my head like "someone is going to die if you don't do this" or "all your friends are going to start hating you if you don't do this". Which I know is ridiculous and makes no sense, but it stresses me out and so I feel the need to keep up this even number stuff in order to make these thoughts go away.

I'm not sure if these are symptoms of OCD or just me being weird. I know nobody can diagnose me except a doctor, I just want to know if anyone can relate because my whole life I've thought I was crazy and I've never really tried to talk to anyone about it because I'm scared they'll think I'm weird or something.

Thanks!

louloulou222
12-07-2016, 09:25 AM
yes i can tell you this is defo ocd.... :( xxx

PDX503
12-14-2016, 10:05 AM
Hi,

Some things have been bothering me for as long as I can remember and I just wanted to get some opinions on if this seems concerning/if you guys think I should talk to someone or if I'm just freaking out over nothing.

I've always had this obsession with even numbers. I often have to do things twice or multiple times because if I don't it can cause me anxiety. For example, I'll reread sentences over and over again, I'll click the clear button on the microwave exactly 8 times every time, I'll check to make sure the cupboards are closed exactly 2 times, if I'm driving and I hit my brake once I have to do it again to make sure I do it an even number of times, etc etc.

If I don't do these things, I often get stressed out and for some reason these ideas come into my head like "someone is going to die if you don't do this" or "all your friends are going to start hating you if you don't do this". Which I know is ridiculous and makes no sense, but it stresses me out and so I feel the need to keep up this even number stuff in order to make these thoughts go away.

I'm not sure if these are symptoms of OCD or just me being weird. I know nobody can diagnose me except a doctor, I just want to know if anyone can relate because my whole life I've thought I was crazy and I've never really tried to talk to anyone about it because I'm scared they'll think I'm weird or something.

Thanks!

You are definitely not freaking out over nothing. I have OCD and its interfered with my life to the point where I've lost jobs and even friendships for being constantly late for work and events. I have issues with counting things a certain amount of times as well, and never ending routines that can take up hours of my day. Things have definitely gotten better after seeing a doctor and getting on the right medication, but it hasn't completely gone away. I've improved in certain situations, such as getting halfway to my intended destination only to turn around and go back to check lights, faucets, oven, coffee maker, locks, etc... and each thing had to be checked the exact amount of times every day or I would have to start over. If I didn't perform this ritual, like you, I would start to get anxious and stressed out, and become convinced that something bad would happen. Another thing that has to be done while driving is have the radio on a certain volume number at all times, and I put dark tape over the clock, because if I see numbers in a certain order, I'll go back home to avoid certain disaster (at least in my mind), if I hit a bump on the street, I'll drive back to make sure that I didn't hit anything or anyone, i may do this multiple times before I'm satisfied that everyone is fine. Getting to sleep at night has its challenges too. For example, I have to get up a number of times to make sure everything is shut off, cars locked, house locked, etc... it can be exhausting and it's not at all fun, and I get upset when people see this disorder as a joke to be laughed about. I hope you'll decide to see a doctor about this. Good luck!

Dragonfly Wings
12-14-2016, 12:13 PM
Heya Melissa,

I can absolutely relate, especially on the numbers. I am classed as "borderline OCD" though - so I guess not a full diagnosis? I would say it's certainly something to look into, and not fun to live with either :(

Big hugs!
K.

jonyboy1966
12-19-2016, 01:39 AM
It does sound like symptoms of OCD, but even if it is, it can be dealt with effectively with the right approach. The 'reason' you have the thoughts is strangely not important, it is the way they are sticking and causing distress. That process can be unlearned. See an OCD specialist if you can, and talk it through openly. They've heard it all before so you won't shock anyone no matter how bizarre your thoughts seem.x

Anthemic
12-20-2016, 06:35 PM
I've knowingly had OCD for at least 17 years (since I was 8 years old), and I can definitely say that this does sound like OCD. I suffered from this disorder for at least 7 years before I finally told someone about my problems. If I could go back in time, I would have said something sooner, because this disorder stole a large part of my childhood. I am now on Lexapro, and it saved me. Do yourself a HUGE favor... Tell a doctor. Don't leave anything out. They can't help you unless you're completely honest.

What you're having are intrusive thoughts. They are obsessions brought on by the OCD. I was too scared to tell anyone about what was going on because I was worried that they would think I was crazy. When I told my doctor, he treated me like I was normal. That was a relief.

I used to convince myself that if I didn't repeat certain things, my mom would die. My mom wasn't even unhealthy. It was just a random, horrible thought that became an obsession. To this day, I still have some thoughts like this, but they're so easy to ignore now that I'm on Lexapro.

heytherealex
02-16-2017, 04:41 AM
I completely understand what you're going through. I started showing symptoms of OCD when I was in kindergarten. I'd feel the need to tap my fingers an even number of times or I couldn't step on sidewalk cracks. It sounds strange to someone who isn't used to it but it's completely normal for people with OCD. I was medicated pretty early on and also saw a psychologist. She said things got better with age since your brain doesn't fully develop until you're in your twenties. Another interesting thing she'd have me to is what she called "fighting back." I wouldn't give into my compulsions and as hard as it was, it actually did help in the long run. The idea is to prove to yourself that nothing bad will happen if you don't follow through with your urges.

I'd definitely recommend talking to a doctor because after awhile, mine became more about unwanted thoughts than compulsions. It's best to tackle the problem as soon as you can.

Best of luck. Hang in there, I know how hard it can be.