View Full Version : confused and dont want to admit...help!

09-18-2012, 01:21 PM
Hi, so, im new to this forum and i really would like to get some advice from others who are also dealing with what i am goin thru. Only recently i have mentioned to my doctor that i throw up after i eat...i binge eat and then purge and then feel guilty and then be happy cuz i look skinnier...well my doctor says im overweight. I am 31 yrs old 5'3 and about 160lbs. I have been thru alot within the last year but i constantly struggle with thinking about what to eat and then think about the fastest way to get rid of it. I know i have a problem but i dont want to admit it.

I have lost 25 lbs since February but i want to lose 30 more...its crazy its my life thats all i think about...eat..throw up ..binge...purge..its a constant battle.

I have been reading some articles on what happens to a person on the inside like physically the things that go on inside your body when you throw up after meals or even in my case after a frappe or a small snack. I know my bowels are all messed up because i cant go to the bathroom or when i do i explode (kinda gross). i get stoamch cramps all the time and my throat is forever hurting.

I cry all the time im so depressed and sad and cant sleep. I have a beautiful young son (11yrs old) but he lives with his father and thats another issue.

Please anyone with kind words, please reply. I cant talk to my husband because he doesnt understand.

09-18-2012, 01:25 PM
I'm sorry you're going thru this, but I'm glad you found this place. It's a great place for support and information. You might want to post on the eating disorders board, you will get more people who might understand and be able to help you more than on the general health board.
good luck to you

09-18-2012, 01:28 PM
Thanks! i appreciate your support. :-)