View Full Version : Horrible thought?!

12-23-2013, 01:29 AM
Hi - I have OCD and am on Effexor for it and it really helps for the most part - I am a mom of 3 - even though I know it's not my fault that I have OCD (from what I've learned it's most likely genetic), I feel very guilty about it as a mom - when my kids were little I would sometimes have images of hurting them - not wanting to at all but just images of doing violent things to them - it was so upsetting at the time because I love them so much! Then, randomly one day last week, a thought pops into my head - "if you had to lose (as in from death) one of your kids, which one would it be?" Who has thoughts like that??? I feel such guilt and shame - I have been to therapy in the past and it hasn't helped much - I can be fine for months and then out of nowhere I get blindsided with a horrible thought like that! Looking for a mom with OCD out there who could offer some words!


12-31-2013, 02:37 PM
I don't have kids but I have harm o, and I get awful thoughts sometimes, too. It is ocd hun.