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Consistency & Creativity

Posted 01-03-2015 12:50 PM by beth950
Updated 01-15-2015 11:23 PM by Administrator

I told myself I would try and write everyday. That was a new years resolution kind of thing. So here I am.. even though today is one of my less articulate days. You should have heard me trying to pray in the shower.. stumbling over my words and editing my sentences... in a prayer (I was and am a grammar nerd at times). Anyways. feelings...
Today I feel okay. I feel like parts of me are starting to peek through this cloud of angst and fear. It makes me scared (surprise surprise) that my creativity...
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Posted 01-02-2015 02:05 PM by beth950
Updated 01-15-2015 11:29 PM by Administrator

Day 4 on Epival and I think my body is trying to go into a "high". I'm not feeling the doom and gloom today; I woke up feeling like shopping. Any other day, that would be okay. I would indulge .. but these days I'm all like "oh it's just your chemicals Bethany"! So yes, I am confused. Today I am somewhat happy whereas yesterday I was helpless !? I also had a dream about things I do in my "highs".
I'm going to book an appointment with a therapist I used to see...
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One day at a time

Posted 01-01-2015 12:34 PM by beth950

Day 3 of Epival..I'm feeling scared. Fear is not the way to ring in the New year. I'm trying to think positive; I have a supportive family, a (somewhat) understanding boss, a great doctor and I'm being treated. But I'm still scared- what if this doesn't work? When can I trust myself again? When can I trust that the things I'm feeling and doing aren't a result of a chemical "high" or "low"? I'm constantly questioning myself now. Am I doing this because of chemicals or is this...
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New Diagnosis – Bipolar, Cycloythymic, losing my marbles

Posted 12-31-2014 05:34 PM by beth950
Updated 01-15-2015 11:49 PM by Administrator (per the rules)

So. July of 2007 I had turned 18, moved out of my parents house into my own apartment and enrolled in my first year of university. A little bit of an adjustment period there. I slowly started losing weight, stopped sleeping, started crying at random times and would get these episodes of fainting (dizziness, numbness/tingling, nausea, diarrhea, tunnel vision, tachycardia and just a feeling that I was losing control and intense fear). I'm 5'3 and dropped down to 89 lbs. My mom thought I had...
Posted in Mental Health
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Update 3

Posted 12-31-2014 02:33 PM by Tori358

Hi all! I am 22 days post op and doing well. I noticed yesterday that I have about a 2-3 inch strip on the underside of my arm that is completely numb. It starts about my elbow and goes down my arm. Other than that I would say I'm doing quite well. I am able to bend my arm pretty easily. My incision looks like its healing well. I still have Steri Strips on it which I can remove in another 3 days. After I remove them I was told to start massaging the incision with something. I will try some coconut...
Posted in Pain Management
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