Stuck in a rut. Depression is taking over, need to be happy again.
This is my first post. I need to have control of my life again. I need advice on where to start to get my life back, and be happy. I picture my life one year ago, and I can't help but wish I could go back in time. Everything was perfect. I had an amazing job, I was going out with friends, loving myself, having so much confidence in myself and everything I was doing, and I had a stress free relationship. I look at my life now, and I can't help but cry. I have no job, no money, no friends, no life. It's been this way for about a month now. I no longer live at my parents house. I live with my boyfriend and his grandparents. Since I lost my job, I have been a hermit. I collect unemployment, I am inside my bedroom for most of the day, and I just lay around and do nothing but feel sad. THIS IS NOT ME. I don't know what is wrong with me. I have lost all confidence in myself and can't even find a job or keep any friends. I need to feel happy and proud of myself again. My boyfriend keeps telling me that this behavior is making our relationship suffer, but all that does it make me feel even more sad. It's a viscous circle. Where do I need to start to get my life back together?? I'm tired of being a pathetic 23 year old female that has nothing to be happy for. I am just so lost. Please if anyone has gone through this, or just has advice, I would appreciate anything.
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