I am sorry, I know how you feel, I can relate to you because we are in the same situation. The problem is the stress! You have to find the way to manage it. Take the antivirals and supplements to see if something change. I am taking L-lysine as well and doing so I feel a bit better because in my mind I have the idea that I am fighting the H.lol...We have a virus.but it is all about our mind right now.
(Sorry for my mistakes my primary language is not English😜