the only dilemma you have is self created.

your problem is knowing if the information you read is valid.
when you go to google chances are you are going to find
alot of false,misleading,outdated information about hiv.
when something is posted on the internet it is there
forever and nobody is there to correct what is wrong.
hiv isn't some mystery illness,there are
no immaculate infections (as you are fearing here!!)
it has been around a while now and the medical community has
it down pat now after dealing with it for over 30 years now.
in the beginning it was differant,alot of unknown was happening
and alor of the information you are getting is from the effects of that.
the people on here have the correct information!!!

and the thing is there are other people around to correct then
if they were wrong!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
you had no risk
your symptoms are not hiv specific
so there is no way you are getting hiv.
seeing you do not believe this and still question this
says you need to see a mental health professional
because nothing we say here is working for you.
i'm not posting again for you either
because it just feeds your fire
and dosen't help you and makes me sound
like a broken record
go get help