awe Blues
.......please hang in there.
I'm not about to lie and say this has been a bed of roses or that my personality hasn't changed or that I also don't feel I've lost brain function as I know I have. Does it bother me? Yes. At times I get very upset about it. I think that's only human. This morning was one of those times even. I used to have such get up and go and be able to do so much and conquer anything and now it's all I can do to get myself to even care much less find the energy to do it.
I don't have any magical answers for you but here's what I do that does help. I first make sure I'm around people everyday and try to take the focus off myself. Just interacting is sooooo helpful. Even if at times I feel I may be a blubbering idiot so what. If people can't follow it then who cares. I'm doing the best I can! They'll get over it. I also have my close friends and know who to talk to and retreat to when really needed. Do that one alot! I also just have to plain FORCE myself to start doing something and take breaks as I go but once I'm doing something I'm so much better and it takes my mind off things and while I can't do what I used to do or organize as I used to or things like that I do my best and some days are better than others. Just that little feeling of accomplishment helps alot.
I know how you feel all too well ....I think most all of us do. It's more than extremely frustrating and also something you just can't explain to someone who's not walked in your shoes. I don't even try anymore. I just try to live and do what I can do. ...Don't be so hard on yourself. ...yikes...that's coming from the pro of doing that one!!!!
take care!
cindy
