My Mama had a hemorrhagic stroke and I'm so scared :(

Jenzie

On May 28th my Mama had a hemorrhagic stroke, and had a blood clot the size of a tennis ball removed from the left side of her brain. She told the doctors that the year was 1920.She basically knew nothing. Before her surgery she knew me. The hospital kept her sedated for about 4 days after surgery. When she woke up she knew me. She also knows her own name now. One day she knew my oldest Daughter, the next day she didn't. On June 3rd (my Brothers Birthday) she was actually able to eat (scrambled eggs and milk). On June 4th she was moved to rehabilitation. That night she fed herself her own supper. That night she had a severe attack of pain, holding her head in both hands, kicking her feet, banging her head on the bed and screaming OH to the top of her lungs. Nurse came in an tried to give her 2 Tylenol. My Step Father totally went off. Needless to say, several hours later she was brought 2 Percocet. The next morning when the doctor came in, he crawled these nurses and gave a standing order for stronger medication when my Mama needed it. He also had her moved to a different floor with better nurses who are way more caring!!

On June 5th my Mama sang the first verse of one of her favorite songs and didn't miss one word. We were all ecstatic!! Yesterday we went to visit her. She "acted" as if she knew me, but I can't be sure. She kissed me several times and smiled. She was fascinated about a silver teddy bear necklace I was wearing and she wouldn't stop playing with it. I had my Grandson take it off of me and I handed it to her. She held it and just stared at it, then the chain fell and she jumped with a look of terror on her face. We hooked my necklace to her hospital bed so she can look at it. Next she was fascinated with my keys which were hooked on the loop of my jeans, and she reached for them. Naturally I gave them to her. On my key ring is a strap my Daughter made me, trimmed in bright lime green with black/white zebra print in the center. She held my keys the whole time I was there just staring at them (I'm thinking because they were shiny and bright). She smelled of them, and also put them next to her face.When we left I took off the lime green zebra strap and gave it to her.

Sometimes she just looks at the wall or the ceiling and just smiles so big, or lets out a small laugh. Yesterday, my Grandson who is 12 seemed to be her main focus as far as family in the room. She constantly smiled at him!! My Daughter and I feel like she is in a child like state right now, and seems to relate to him. I want to go buy her this doll called a "Dressy Bessy", because this doll is bright colored, has a zipper, a button and strings to tie (to teach small children to do these things). Could this also help my Mama with her rehabilitation?? I've also told my family the entire time when she's awake that she can hear us. Do you think she can?? When she knows us she can say our names, but mostly she just rambles (Bless her). By the way, she's 71 I forgot to mention this. I didn't ask a lot of questions in my post, but would appreciate SO much any comments that could help. I feel like I'm losing my best friend. Since the time of her stroke 10 days ago I can no longer function, concentrate and can only cry. PLEASE if you have anything to help me or to help me help her...comment back. Thank you all so very much and God Bless.

Jenzie