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Pointless721 02-22-2017 11:01 PM

Bitter
 
I'm new here and this is my first post. I'm overwhelmed with anger and bitterness and I had to get it out so I joined. There's always so much on my mind but this is it at the moment- I can't bond with my son. I get the hard parts of caring for him. Everyone else gets the joy. I can't bond. The thing that angers me the most is I lost my body to have my son and I get none of the joy. Everyone else does. It doesn't help that I caught my fiance looking at and liking all kinds of pictures on the internet. Of course these women look nothing like me. It just hurts. He has female friends that are coming out of the woodwork since we had our son. I'm way too insecure to deal with this crap. I got through to him about the pictures but not his "friends." In about to just walk away and abandon my family. They would be better off without me.

For the first month after he was born I had to listen to everyone talk about how much he looks like his father.

Pointless721 02-22-2017 11:03 PM

Re: Bitter
 
To top it off I wanted to exclusively pump. I can't make more than 5 oz a day at most.


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