The system is awful.I could use another word,but I won't here..
Here's a story for you that will blow your top...I went to Social security to get benifits...at that time I was in a wheelchair...as I was sitting there I was talking to this guy and he asked me if it was the first time I was there I said yes,,he says to me" let me tell you it's easy..I get a check because I'm an addict..I said " to what?" He said (are you ready???) Cigarettes. Yep.I couldn't belive it. I went in ..I had all my paper work...I got denied on the spot. Go figure..I have been ****** ever since about the system.
I know how you feel about being supported by someone else. I too can't make it out there with what I get each week from W/C .
I told my Atty. the same question..How do these people sleep at night? and he told me that's there job. Yeah well...I one of these days they too will be in the system and let's see how they feel about THEIR SYSTEM.
I wish I was 800 in debt....Since my intial injury..from 04,...I was afraid at that time to file..I didn't want to lose my job. I have sold everything that I have. I was having yard sales to make the rent. When I had nothing left. I went to my jeep to sleep. Yep...I lived in my jeep for a month...never told anyone...it was awful. Then my friend found out and I stayed with her. I filed W/c and they fought me all the way. It's been a long hard road.
This last time when my knee didn't hold up..I filed and got an atty right away.
I am now 28,000 in debt. Have nothing but the clothes that I have. When the check doesnt come as expected...I don't eat. I pay rent every week 150. And that doesnt include the extra 100 that I give her for utilites. so that leaves me with less than 75 bucks to buy food and pay my car insurence. As far as the computer..my friend has the setup and she lets me use it.
After this is over and I go to court to settle..I am going to do everything I can to get the message out. Rules need to change.
My case manager...says that RSD is hard to prove. Okay maybe it is..but tell my body that what have is in my head !
I used enjoy life,go out fishing,camping,go for "road trips" with my friends,laugh,cook you name it. I was always moving. Now I have to convince my body to get off the sofa or get out of bed in the morning. I have to convince myself that my life is worth living..and that my friend, is the hardest part of my day. BUt I keep going. Sometimes I feel like a robot.
That "doctor" that I went too,I was sitting in the waiting room and a guy was there and he was telling me that he hadn't gotten a check for 8 months because they said that he could go back to what he was doing..He had 3 major surguries on his spine and was in a back brace and could hardly walk never mind sit...He worked in a trucking dock. I told him go in and say NOTHING to this guy.
I gave him the link to ALLIANCE for INJURED WORKERS in our state. I hope he looked into it. I am also going to try again for SSDI. I don't want too. I want to go back to work. But I am going to try.
Some people don't understand that sometimes when you look at someone they look fine but you never know..If you can't see it,,it aint so. Yeah right.
I don't know if you have an ATTY.. if you do..sounds to me like you need a better one if not then you really need to get one that only deals with W/C.
At leat they can help you get the creditors off your back. I went to get an Atty, to file for bankruptcy...But the cost was so much..I couldn't aford it( if I had that kind of money I would pay some of my bills!) Here In Mass. If I don't have health insurence..I start getting fined..Yeah well...I wish someone would tell me how to squeak out extra money to PAY for the coverage. Maybe I should'nt eat anymore. i only eat once a day now as it is. I try to make the food last. I did that in October when I didn't get a check...I never drank so much water in my life!
All I think about is I hope this RSD doesnt go any place else in my body..bad enough as it is. It's already traveled to my shoulder and right arm. GUESS i GOT TO LEARN HOW TO BE LEFT HANDED.
All I wanted for christmas was to feel "normal" for 10 mins. My Christmas was spent in bed...Never got my checks ,2 weeks before Christmas,so I didn't go anywhere or see anyone.
Thank God for your Dad and family. Being understanding. That helps.
See if you have in your state The ALLIANCE FOR INJURED WORKERS. If not then just look into the web site for my state..it will tell exactly how the system works and how they really do try and screw you. My W/c people..they have been fined so many times I don't understand how they stay in buisness. BUt I promised myself and I'll promise you..I am going to make quite a ruckus when I settle my case and not have to depend on them to send me my checks every week. We all need to stick together.
I know life used to be good...I only hope someday it will be again.
Just keep on plugging away...It's GOT TO GET BETTER.
Ranting?? thank goodness for this site. At least I know now that I am not alone.
Gail