Thanks for dropping in guys
Hi Julia girl, wow, you're post was touching...you come across as an extremely intelligent girl and I think you made one of the hardest - but smartest - moves you could have made. You must be extremely brave and strong to face things head on like that, and break up the relationship even though it kills you to do it. So many aren't able to take that step, and get stuck in relationships that only become more problematic. You should at least find solace in the fact that you've made a tough and smart decision, and had the guts to go through with it. I'm thinking of you at this time, I know how hard it is. When you face up to those feelings head on, it tears you apart, but makes you stronger. Believe me, I know. I'm battling with my emotions every moment of every day, but for the most part, coming out on top
Lisa24 - I know
just what you mean about the dreams. I've taken control of my waking consciousness enough to push thoughts of him out of my mind relatively effortlessly during the days now, but it doesn't stop him from plaguing my every dream. I have always had very vivid dreams, and they've become moreso since the breakup - constant images of me being with him, kissing him and being intimate with him...I always have this sense that something is 'wrong' in the dream. Then I wake up, am become very depressed about the whole thing. Sometimes, it'll be dreams about 'her', and I'll wake up in a raging bad mood, ready to punch something. The dreams vary, but its always 'him'. So I think its safe to say, at least in my subconscious, I've still got a long way to go to be completely free of him....if ever.
I don't actually recall reading that you're ex has a new girl? I thought I was kinda alone in that area...when did he get together with her? do you know her? How long after you did he get together with her? I'm so sorry to hear of it...it just adds insult to injury, doesn't it?
Nini - an inspiration? wow. I've latched onto the rest of you as inspiration for my cause, and I feel like I draw strength from other people's experiences and wisdom. You've been a major source of this. Its been so difficult, and I have a long way to go, but I've always been extremely determined, and stubborn as hell. I won't let anything keep me down for long and I tend to get mad at myself when I catch myself wallowing in my own self-pity. So I suppose, for once, these traits have paid off...
Will visit again soon...
Tanith.
