Eating lots of food all at once by ones self in a short period of time and making yourself sick are symptoms of bulimia. I used to do this too, and it is horrifying and upsetting to do as well. How on earth do you ever share this with anyone in your family that you do this? Or do you? It took me years to share this with my DH that I did this after work or that I did this in high school with my best friend after school and after football games. Now I am on a medication that stops it in it's tracks by 90%. Hallelujah! The medication saved my life. Another friend of mine who is bulimic takes a different kind of medication called Lamictal. It works for her and has helped her quite a bit as well.
Sometimes in life one has to make decisions as to determine if you want to stop the madness or if you want to just stay in it because it is a safety net. I stayed there for years because I wanted to and didn't know how else to get out. I was in therapy but I didn't care if it worked or not; I was determined to make it not work, and one tdoc was out for just money, and she didn't care if I got better or not as well. Then I found my current tdoc and he stopped it right in it's tracks. Made me confront myself, the situation, and forced me to make a decision about myself, my life, and my family. Was I really happy with my life? Did I like where I was going? And I had to look at the past experiences I had that were causing me grief. That was the worst. I learned a lot, and still go to therapy often.
There are support groups out there. You have to contact the hospitals to find them and call the psychiatrict department. They will help assist you from there and direct you to the right people. Over Eaters Annonymous is for binge eaters only, and they are very strict who they will accept. They don't accept some bulimics; as they are very picky about that. In my area they didn't accept me. I assume I wasn't accepted due to having an anorexic past maybe. The best groups are the ones who are diversed, as they might be lead from tdocs/nutritionists from the hospitals or those who have been patients from the hospitals.
Hang in there. I know this is a rough road to go down. It is not one that any person would want to walk through nor chose to. It is one that just happens due to pure anxiety and depression and a reaction from all of those occurances. I'm sorry that this is happening to all of you. I wish that things were better. Take care ladies. (((HUGS)))
Many good wishes for today.
Coffeegirl