I'd like to welcome you to the board and possibly offer you some hope. I'm glad that you aren't suicidal and maybe posting on here will offer some support to you. Is lithium a possibility? I did have a friend who had a similar plight and when he was given the emsam (sp?) patch he got a lot of relief. Did you try this one? Also was wondering if you can get a different dr. and/or therapist, one who will be more helpful? Was there an initial occurance that brought on the depression, one that can be addressed? Hang in there whatever you do!! I've had days like you're having, no energy, no shower, no food, no hope.....they come and go so I know the frustration. Take care!