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Thank you all, so much. :(

I'm sorry I just jumped right in and immediately started freaking out...the details...right now I am on 100 mg of Lamictal in the morning, and 100 in the evening, 15 mg of Lexapro each morning, (I went from 20, 10, back to 20, to 15, 10, 5, nearly DIED, now I'm on 15), and Klonpin 3 times a day. I called my current pdoc out of desperation this morning, and he phoned in an emergency order for Risperdal. Apparently the pharmacy didn't get the order, tomorrow I'm going to call and see what is going on, and more importantly, what this drug will do for me.

I've been on Lamictal and Lexapro for over a year, and Klonopin/Ativan for around 2 1/2 years. Before I was diagnosed BP, I was tried frist on Zoloft, then Effexor, Cymbalta, Remeron, and one or two other SSRIs that I can't remember. (My memory has been ATROCIOUS as of late, it's very frightening). I was also put on the "revolutionary" EMSAM (transdermal selegeline) patch, which increased my depression so bad that it landed me in the psych ward this same time last year, almost on the week.

Today, well, I got through it. Before I forget, tsohl, I completely agree with you. I am tired of being influenced by others when they have no CLUE how I am feeling inside. I'm so nice that I just go along and say, "yeah, I know, you're right, that's true" all the while feeling so upset inside because my heart thinks, and I would hope, knows what I need. My own uncle basically called me a whiny, childish female dog...

I try so hard not to let it/others get to me (I'm falling asleep, but I wouldn't be able to go to bed until I posted here), but today especially hurt. I didn't have quite as bad a day as yesterday in the sense that I kept things under wraps for the most part. Well, no, I'd say I had one major and one minor breakdown. Anyway, it resulted in my supervisor and a fellow employee having to assist me through the rest of my teary-eyed evening. I was holding the whole line up (I work in the dietary dept. at my hospital and prepare and deliever the patient meals) by the fact that I was so behind, so out of it, and so overwhelmed that I ended up being SEVEN spaces back from where I was supposed to be. Of course, no one informed me. Nooooooooo. .

OK, I just passed out on the floor for an hour, my poor ister woke me up an d motioned me ny bed, Si I'll finsh later...

Thanks everyone, for ecaring