I'm sorry to hear about your dilemma. I wish I could offer you some advice. I know when you apply for disability it can take awhile and its hard to get. Hang in there. I've had psoriatic arthritis since my mid 20's. I'm in my mid 40's now. There was a time when I could barely get out of bed. But am doing pretty good now. I give myself Enbrel injections which are really helping a lot. There's a lot of things I can no longer do, which makes me sad at times but I need to focus on what I can do. Aren't there some kind of programs through the hospitals that will help pay or pay all medical expenses. You should check with them. I'm sure there's help out there somewhere. It's just knowing where to look or who to ask. Don't give up.