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First, I should mention that this is my first posting so forgive me if I have put my message in the wrong place!

I am a 34 year old woman who suffered a Rt vertebral artery disection 2 1/2 years ago. I was in the hospital for 1 week, the Drs have no idea why my stroke happened. There is no family hx of strokes, I had no preexisting conditions, I don't smoke and I was not on birth control.

In the beginning I couldn't walk, talk or look at things without seeing double. I am happy to say that I was able to walk again by the time I left the hospital (although with a walker), my voice was really weak but I had gained the ability to talk again and my vision was no longer double. I had many months ahead of me that were filled with OT, PT and ST. When I left the hospital I was on Fragmin injections twice daily which my husband had to give me (much to his dislike).

Now, I am left with numbness on my left side. My right eye has strabismus (sp?) which causes headaches frequently. I have a constant cloudy feeling in my head and I feel off balance all the time.

The problem is "I look normal". Therefore others have a hard time understanding why I don't just go back to the way things were. I know inside that I will never be able to go back to "the way things were". My previous job was very stressful and multi-tasking was a must in order to get through the day.

I have frequent moments of "overload" and get very flustered with this. For a person who thrived on juggling multiple tasks it has been VERY difficult to come to such an abrupt stop.

Prior to my stroke I was a very affectionate person. In all of my work experience I have always been involved with the public in some form. I was very much a peopel person. Since my stroke I find myself wanting distance from others, my family included. I found that the friends I had prior to my stroke were my "work friends" and they have to go on with their own lives.

My family is VERY supportive, however I am not the same person anymore and that is hard for them I know. My children were always used to "cuddle time" with me and now I don't like to be touched. I find that I have to make a contious effort to let them hug me and hug them back. Not to mention the strain that is has put on my relationship with my husband.

I have attempted to go to support groups but came away frustrated because I didn't feel that the others who attended the group were in the same place in their life when they suffered their brain injury as I was and therefore I didn't feel a connection.

I was hopeful to find a group of people who like myself were in the business world moving up very quickly when they suffered their injury. I am curious how they found the strength to move forward.

I would welcome any words of support I can get at this point. I feel lost in a whirlwind right now.