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Hi!
I am sorry to hear about your sadness and pain. Perhaps I can offer a little support wiht my experience with depression and my back pain. I am 3 months post op from a hemilaminectomy and discectomy and I still become depressed over my injury. I am 20 and I feel sometimes my life will have to be altered because of fear of reinjuring. I know all this thinking is nonsense/illogical however with depression you can't help feeling that way. I sometimes want to scream and I cry and I don't know what to do. I am in therapy for other problems and I have since started lexapro, an anti-depressant. It seems to help somewhat, however I still get episodes. It is completely normal to feel the way we do because what we have gone through is a tramatic experience, regardless of what people say. We all react differently but however it is, it is normal for us. Your body is important and you have to realize that there is nothing you can do to go back in the past to change things, and all you can do is to make your life as good as possible. I am determined to exercise and resume my normal activities, and lead a normal life. I have hope of new technologies in the future if I ever need them and I rely on others as well for support. I know you can get through this, I have faith. As far as medication goes, I lived on vicodin before my surgery and since I have refused no matter how bad the pain for fear of hurtin myself because of the pain killer. Like I said if you are able to talk to someone, ask about anti-depressants etc. those all might help. You have to remember not to let the pain and injury get the best of you. It seems hard at times, I have foudn that pretending I am 100% fine is the best cure for all my negative thinking. I found myself not wanting to get out of bed for the first month or so, just feeling like a broken person. However, since then, people have told me that there is so much more to life and to treat myself with pride and dignity and to remember how lucky we are to be where we are. I do not know the severity of your problem but I know I was very lucky and people have things much worse. While it still does not make our situation better it helps me realize how much worse I could be. I hope you find some of this helpful and I hope you figure things out and are able to get back to feeling happy and pain free again. Best wishes,
Coby
I know how it feels to be depressed and in pain, and I know there is not a thing in the world that can fix it except for you to come out of it. I wish I could lift your spirits and magically make you feel better because I know what it is to be down. The only thing that is saving me right now is my lexapro 10mg a day and the thought that I am doing everything I can in my power to make myself better and healthier. You have to try and realize there is nothing you can do to change the past and only work to make your life the bes it can be. I know it is easier said than done but that is the one thought that gets me through each day when I feel at rock bottom. Try to realize you are taking the right steps, you are talking to knowledgeable people and you understand what is going on with you. You are taking care of your back and YOU WILL GET BETTER. I pray for you and I hope things start to improve, and don't forget you are not alone, there are others out here to support and who understand what you are dealing with. I hope you can enjoy this memorial day and I am praying for you. Have a good day.
-Coby

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[*]Chronic back pain for 6 years
[*]Epidurals, PT, occasional relief
[*]Hurt back severely during college football
[*]Ruptured L5 S1 and nerve damage
[*]Hemilaminectomy/Discectomy on 2-20-03
[*]Pain is getting better every week
[*]Residual numbness and pain in foot, butt, calf
[*]Rehabing at new PT and getting better
[*]Still have numbness and occasional pain in leg
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You are all not alone and I feel for you all. Having an injury is bad but having a disorder that does not allow you to forget your injury is worse. I am dealing with many of the items you have all spoken about and I definately feel having some sort of 'safe zone' or outlet is a must. Too often I have felt at the end of my road, before and after my injury and I know now that I have this new problem, my surgery, to deal with I needed someone to talk to and give me a place to find support and comfort. I have been on Depakote and Lexapro and I still believe I can work through all this without meds. Either way we all need that extra protection from ourselves every once inawhile and there is nothing wrong with going to a psychiatrist or therapist. We are not ill, and I refuse to be called depressed or whatever you wanna call it. Certain things affect me more than others etc. as all of us do. That is all. Just wanted to say this and I'm sorry if I sound like a tyrant or something but I'm just really tired and delerious from playing video games all night long. I hope everyone here is doing well and I wish you all the luck in the world. Don't feel alone or at the end of the tunnel, I know many of us have felt that way, but there is a way out of the tunnel, and if you can find that direction you can overcome anything.