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I began taking 10 mg Lortabs when I was 15 years old & was using them on a daily basis by the time I was 18. I had worked my way up to 8 10 mg Lortabs a day, so I checked myself into a rehab clinic in March of this year & was released in early May. I was 21 then. I slipped up on May 25th when I experienced something very traumatic & was told that the only way I would ever recover from what happened is if I sought counseling. I have horrible problems with anxiety & low self esteem, so I never even attempted to find a counselor. From May 25th of this year to the night of August 14th, I continued taking anywhere from 4 - 12 10 mg Lortabs a day. I eventually began to hate the feeling of depending on Lortabs to do everything. When I say everything, I mean EVERYTHING, from taking a shower to socializing with others. My addiction has caused me to miss work, argue & become distant with my boyfriend & family, lie to hide my habit, steal to support it & lose touch with myself. I honestly have no idea who I am anymore. Yesterday, I told my Mom that I'd been taking Lortabs every day & that I had gone a whole day without them. She asked me what made me think I could do it this time because I've tried to quit on my own so many times before & always gave up when I started feeling too bad. I slept through most of yesterday (until 6:00pm), had a very mild case of diarrhea & an increased heartbeat, so I took some Immodium AD & a 0.5 mg Xanax that my friend said would help ease the withdrawals. I'd never taken Xanax before, so I didn't know what to expect, but I won't be taking it again unless I'm getting ready to go to sleep because it made me feel completely out of it, almost to the point of feeling worse than I did before. I haven't been able to eat or drink much of anything, couldn't get comfortable last night & wasn't able to go to sleep. That could be because I slept until 6:00pm though. This morning as soon as my boyfriend & his kids woke up & started moving around the house, I broke down & cried for a good 30-45 minutes because at that time, I wanted nothing more than to be left alone. I told my boyfriend that there would be times during my withdrawals that it would be best to leave me alone. He's the possessive type, so he said it would be a big problem if I decided to stay home & deal with the withdrawals on my own. I live with my parents who are hardcore (yet functioning) alcoholics who throw parties almost every night, so I know it wouldn't be a good idea to detox at my house. All in all, I just wanted to explain my situation & see if anyone has any ideas on how I could have as peaceful & stress free of a detox as possible. I almost forgot to mention that I'll be working every day of my detox (physical work) so that's a bummer. My boss & I are very close though, so she's aware of what I'm going through. So, so far the only things that I haven't been able to ease or find a cure for are my anxiety (wanting to seclude myself / not go to work) & the cold sweats. How long do you guys think I should expect to feel rough based on the amount of Lortabs I'd been taking during the period of time that I'd been taking them? I'm sorry I wrote so much.. This is my first time posting & I just had so much on my mind. Thanks!
I'm not so sure that tapering is an option for me because Lortabs are extremely hard to find in my area these days because about 90% of the supply was coming from people doctor shopping in Texas. Everyone I know who goes that route has either gotten busted, slacked off on their trips or stopped going altogether. Part of the reason why I want to quit is because the whole process of finding & getting the pills is extremely stressful in itself, especially when I'm in dire need of them. I wish I would have just stuck to my guns whenever I got out of rehab. This whole ordeal is such a headache to me. I did find a few things that seem to help with the withdrawals - Energy drinks & Adderall. Those come in handy since I can't get any time off of work to go through my withdrawals. :)
Bad news, everyone. I slipped. :( I made it to the beginning of Day 3 & took 2 10 milligram Lortabs. It's been a little over a week since the first day that I tried to quit. Sadly, I've taken around 30 Lortab 10s since then. I know it's no excuse, but things have been so hectic at work, home & with my boyfriend. Those things seem to get me every time. :( My Mom drug tested me yesterday. I tested positive for Amphetamines & Cocaine, but negative for Opiates. What sense does that make? She insists that the test is correct & has since then called everyone in my family to tell them that I've moved on from Lortabs to harder drugs. Now no one in my family will support me or have anything to with me in even the smallest way. I talked to my manager at work & got the next 3 days off, so I'm going to try going cold turkey again. I also let my Mom & Stepdad know what I'm doing even though they don't believe that the only problem I have is with Opiates, so they'll understand when I start to feel the sickness. I just took my last 2 Lortabs about 15 minutes ago & made absolute sure that I have no more access to pills of any kind or money. Anyway, I'm sorry to disappoint you guys. I'm really going to try hard this time. I promise!