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It started Thursday morning when I got up and found my 12 yr old cat had died a few hours before I got up. I knew it was coming because he was diabetic and I'd been giving him insulin and spent thousands keeping him alive the past 6 yrs. I decided to stop his insulin and let nature take it's course. I have other cats that need vet attention. He was laying on my living room floor eyes open, still warm. I called my husband at work and he said he was still hanging in there & petted him for awhile before leaving for work a few hours before I got up. Needless to say, I was a crying mess. I couldn't call out of work because we had 2 people out on vacation already and were swamped. I went into work, crying and with the start of the most awful headache I've ever had. It was relentless, not matter what I took. I could not sleep or eat for 2 days all the while working with it at a frantic pace with over time. It was horrible.

So, I got up with the same blazing headache this morning after about 3 hrs sleep and simply could not take it anymore. Went to an express care and got 20 Lortab for the culprit - tension headache. So, now I have my old beast and buddy, hydrocodone. Finally....no more headache! I ate for the first time in days and actually felt pretty good. Hubby and I went out in the boat and i
relaxed, enjoyed the sunset, stars and a beautiful full moon on a clear calm night. I've taken 2 Lortab every six hours and have to say I've felt the best I've felt in some time.

That's the problem. I know I need them right now, but probably, with some luck, won't need them maybe even tomorrow. Ohh, but they'll call my name.
I know in my head exactly how many I have and will obsess over them until they're gone. I won't be able to leave them alone and hold onto them for another pain event like normal people. For me, when they're gone, they're gone. I don't have access to them so no worries of a physical addiction. Am I glad I got them? Yeah. My head doesn't hurt anymore and I feel good. But I also feel bad. I am an addict.

JB
Hi Reach,

Thank you for your reply. I know you are right. I'm geared to look for pain relief in the form of a pill. I have been since I had a hysterectomy 3 yrs ago. My mind does such horrible things to my body. I cannot sleep, even with the Lortab. I finally slept from 5am to 10am and woke up with this headache again. I've never experienced head pain like this and nothing seems to knock me out. It might ease up some if I could just get some sleep.

I wish I could get a massage. I'm one of those people that does not like to be touched. Strangers touching me like that gives me chills. Our company paid for 2 massage therapists to come into our office and give everyone those massages in the chair. I tried but could not tolerate it. I finally told the poor girl, please stop. It's not you, it's me. LOL

Anyway, I'm considering today a sick day. I am going to try and take it easy and hope I can beat this beast of a headache. I really appreciate your words of wisdom and will take all your advise to heart.

Gratefully,

JB